Hey, I'm new here and I guess I'm looking for advice on how to feel better? I think to some this topic may be not as meaningful, and I have to confess I feel rather silly writing about it, since it's something most people go through at least once in their lifetime. Well, my boyfriend of two years broke up with me this last wednesday and he was my first boyfriend.
I haven't been eating much and me, a 20 year old girl, has been asking my mum to lay down next to me until I fall asleep. I don't feel motivated to do anything and random memories of my relationship keep popping up in my head. I guess part of the reason I'm feeling this bad is because I created expectations and plans for the future, yknow, how you imagine things going and it's so effortless to imagine his face on those plans.
I guess another reason why I'm feeling this bad is because I think it's a problem that's easily fixed and I think he has really settled in his head that it's not. I've told him my opinion and we had a very civilized conversation (sometimes I wish we had fought instead) and I don't think there's anything else I can do. I asked him to really think about it, and get back to me with an answer within a couple of weeks. He agreed but warned me that we're not taking a time, it's a break-up, so I shouldn't have my hopes high. I've spoken to my mum and she said her and my dad took a break when they were dating too and that gives me faith. I don't want it though, I know I'll feel worse if I still think we'll get back together, but I can't help doing it!
All help is very much appreciated, I feel like I'm not myself anymore.
Thank you for reading my post.