Im sooo frekaing proud of myself , i actually woke up to school without getting heart palpitations , i was in a bit of a hurry so i guess i was distracted, my day went very well, i was very calm surprisengly throughout the day , and i even drove home and didnt feel anxious, which is very weird because driving especially in traffic makes me feel very anxious, not because im afraid to drive, i dont mind it i drive alot but because lf traffic and worrying about my anxiety
But today my day even after school, i studied a bit , i went out with friends on a walk and sat with them for a couple hours, and i just realized that i havent felt anxious all day, maybe a couple times where i remembered anxiety but i mostly felt calm , thats a first since mid march, and my anxiety wasnt terrible when it came back but since mid march and i would feel anxiety sometimes mild sometimes more intense throughout the days ..and it was always constant , maybe not all day but everday ..so i feel so happy today was actually anxiety free ..
I used deep breathing a couple times when i was walking , now i try to stay calm and let the excitement overwhelm me , im also finding out im worrying about getting migraines with aura, im avoiding glaring at screens and , im taking more breaks so i hope i dont experience one , im worried since my migraines worsen each attack, that the next one will kill me , eventhough i never saw proof that migraines with aura that affect speech and movement and mental function kill ? Not sure