Anxiety attacks

[Kevin160]

Still getting some anxiety attacks throughout the day ..usually when i wake up, in the afternoon, and at night..short anxiety attacks that last half an hour and then go away...

I feel good that its actually not constant, less frequent, today i had anxiety after i woke up at 11am ..then at 5pm after i went to the gym ...in addition to a few heart palpitations here and there ...kinda proud thats pretty much it ..i do get some weird thoughts throughout the day such as how much longer anxiety do i have before i die , or what if didnt make till next year, or what if i die ...weird considering my anxiety is not severe, just because its daily but not cinstant, like its no different that excitement or happiness, and they can happen daily and not kill me , i feel frustrated because eventhough im much better , thre was a time where i had zero stress and anxiety , and now i have the ability to calm and i learned alot but i feel like i cant earn a chance to show that i wont allow my brain to wander off and panic myself through anything , its been more than a month since my last panic attack, and since then its been mild or no axiety but it still scares me and makes me think i will die even though i know i wont , but i read and google too many things and im surrounded by people who inforce their unknowledgable brains on me and say that anxiety will kill me ..and it will cause diseases and stuff etc... not going into detail but you get the point

[Needtovent]

Kevin keep doing what you're doing as to calming strategies. That has clearly been helpful. When the thoughts come, just keep reminding yourself that they are annoying, but not reflective of what is really going on or WILL occur for you. AND, avoid the negative folks to the extent that you can. I think you're doing great!

[Kevin160 in reply to Needtovent]

Thank you so much..the support really encourages me to not give up ..im telling u im feeling better but i just would rather it be without these anxiety attacks throughout the day and the heart palpitations because they remind me and bring up many thoughts that make me panic or be a bit anxious..

I mean people around dont really understand what im going through and i know it can be annoying but there are things and limits to me that i can always pass ..for example people who have anxiety feel anxious for things that seem silly for others ..but people around dont understand and it worsens it sometimes and its just becoming sooo tiring to talk to them and explain because ive done so alot and it never works ..

[Kevin160 in reply to Needtovent]

The severity of anxiety is less ..its also less frequent..but still thats not good enough for me ..i just want another break from anxiety ..because having it on the daily is very scary for me because chronic anxiety is much worse and regardless of what i tell myself i cant convince myself that its not harmless ..i did for a while then a recent incident made me think that im going to die if i stress long enough

[Needtovent in reply to Kevin160]

Sorry you’re still feeling this Kevin. At your age, I didn’t even realize what I was experiencing WAS anxiety. Not sure if that was good or not. Point being; one DOES learn to live through it. I purposefully don’t say WITH it because it is an ongoing effort to rid myself of it. I think we e talked about the acceptance method to lessen your body’s reaction to triggers over time. Just you wait, one day you’ll find yourself doing something ordinary, that you used to do comfortably, then found it difficult because of the stinking anxiety - and you’ll say WOW I’m ABLE to do it again!

[CallMeByYourSquid]

Thank you for describing being overwhelmed. We have been there too.

[lostgirl75]

First anxiety will absolutely not kill you as you already know. If so I would of died hundreds if not thousands of time lol. Going to the gym helps me warn off anxiety attacks so your doing awesome just by doing that. I cry the whole time I’m at the gym because of my anxiety but I do it every day because if I don’t I get more attacks. Massages also help me to calm down and keep me grounded. But you sound like you know what your doing so keep up the great work.

[Kevin160 in reply to lostgirl75]

Thank you so much..i needed some reassurance honestly..i know anxiety is harmless but i keep forgetting that sometimes and its hard to calm down sometimes ...but thankfully my anxiety is not too severe now ..its not controlling and i can do many things i was afraid of before..im less superstitious and im getting less irrational thoughts ..i feel like im anxious less frequently than before where i used to not get a break all day ..just panic attacks and fear 24/7 ..when i wake up ..when i go to sleep etc..

Now It seems more controlled however im having more stressful circumstances now which is inconvenient..i have my A level exams soon ...and its so much pressure ..i have so much to study and im worried that im going to screw it up and i need to do well this year for university next year ..im just sooo pressured by myself and people and im not going to a therapist and i dont take meds i just rely on meditation and exercise and breathing techniques ..and this website which sometimes dont work or make it worse ..

[lostgirl75 in reply to Kevin160]

School is stressful but keep studying don’t give up you’ll be fine if you just study and go to class. It makes me proud to hear that your going to school and that it’s causing you stress because that means it’s important and if you didn’t stress over it I would be worried. Keep on doing what your doing and don’t forget to exercise it helps the most

[Kevin160 in reply to lostgirl75]

Ya i will try to exercise more ...im just also worried that i will start getting anxiety over anything ..even if i no longer fear it going to kill me ...just like i used to obsess over my pulse and blood pressure..when i got over that the constant panic didnt stop ..and i feel the same thing is going to happen even if i get over this..the anxiety will sjoft to something else

[lostgirl75]

Maybe even try medication

[Kevin160 in reply to lostgirl75]

Well, i mean i would love to try therapy and i think i might consider meds , but my parents think i no longer need it because i had a couple anxiety free weeks where i told them i felt much better, but i never said i didnt want to to therapy , so when i told them about the appointment they were like no need , and im too tired to go through the whole process of telling them i need it ..they are no where near supportive and they act supportive sometimes but they expect me to pay off all the therapy ..i mean thats just terrible

[lostgirl75 in reply to Kevin160]

I agree it is terrible for your parents to expect you to pay. Your going to school that is your full time job. You should still be under their medical plan which would pay for your therapy or medication if needed. If you go to your general physician he or she could prescribe you something but it’s best to take nothing if you can