Depressed Abroad

[Eoiny23]

Hi guys. So I suffered depression 2 years ago but was treated and felt good. I moved country, new job and was beginning to thrive. On the back of my new found confidence I decided to move again, this time a lot further away.

Over the past month or so problems have began kickin in again though. I feel lost and alone, even though I have a lot of good friends with me. I feel properly depressed and most distressing is I've had suicidal fantasies. Not that I am, but just some days that word or image gets stuck in my head and it scares me and makes me feel horrible. I've given up drinking and I am trying cbt online.

I was wondering has anyone here been in the same boat? I understand this migh come across as worrying and believe me when I say I'm not suicidal, but just some days can't get the image out of my head. Does anyone have any effect treatments or anything they did o soothe these thoughts?

Thanks again,

Eoiny

[Kat63]

You are right to try the online CBT. Do you have access to therapy where you are now?

One thing that really sucks about depression is that sometimes, you have to deal with it off and on for most of your life. That is my situation. It would be great if I could finally get cured once and for all and never have to worry about it again.

But that’s not going to happen for me. It took me awhile, but I’ve accepted that it comes and goes.

[Redeemed58]

Hi. I am so sorry to hear about your setback. There is a tremendous amount of stress associated with any move at all, and you have made a big one moving so far away. I am glad to hear that you have friends around and that you have made steps to make yourself feel better. Have you considered calling the therapist that you worked with previously? Oftentimes since they know you they can provide some good advice. Even though you are dealing with some issues, you seem to be in a pretty good place, and you seem to be in touch with your feelings, and that is good. You don't mention if you are a person of faith but if you are, have you considered going to a pastor to talk? Also, for me, music is quite a relief. Perhaps listening to music that lifts your spirits might be useful. Do things every day that reminds you that you are a valuable person, that your life is worthwhile, and that you are loved! In my life, Jesus and the scriptures have lifted me out of my darkest days. I pray you can find this same relief. Blessings to you!