Work

[purl1]

Well I have actually been busy all day. visited my daughter in her new apartment and went to the grocery store, but I can't stop thinking about when I go back to work. I have been unemployed for 4 months now and I know I will have to find a job at the end of May. Right now I make decent money from unemployment and I don't think I will be able to find a job that will pay as much. so I'm waiting and I think the waiting is what is driving me insane. It's in the back of my mind that I will be going back to work and I don't know where it will be. I go out to the store during the day and feel like I shouldn't be there. I feel guilty because I should be working and pulling my weight. I don't know if I can even work right now because my anxiety is so high. I tell myself to relax and don't worry about it right now, I have time. It's just always there poking it's head out every so often. I am sitting here shaking because I'm so upset about all of this. I don't know how to just relax and not worry about it. I don't know what to do...

[Kat63]

I can relate, purl. This morning, as my boyfriend was leaving for work, he suggested that I catch up on some of my favorite TV shows. But I feel guilty and ashamed that I’m unemployed, and I don’t feel like I deserve to do fun stuff like watch TV.

I had a job interview today that I think went pretty well, and I really liked the people. That interview boosted my spirits a lot. I know I still might not get the job, but I feel now more like it’s possible that I will get *some* job.

[purl1 in reply to Kat63]

that's great, I hope you get the job! I really do think a lot of my anxiety is from not working. The uncertainty of it. I just don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know if I can work with this much anxiety. Not to mention I have to wait until May.

[hypercat54]

Hi you can't be from the UK if you are making decent money from unemployment! x

[purl1 in reply to hypercat54]

LoL, no I'm not.