Been trying to kill time

[DistressedPoe]

It was fun today. Mum and dad went out shopping so us siblings were alone at home. We sat together and had fun, my bro asked me to teach him how to play the guitar. He's actually doing pretty well ! Though...a part of me felt very... envious ? In a way. They were laughing and seemed so carefree and I just...I guess I still felt a bit down. But it's okay ! At least I didn't spend my days alone. I've been writing a lot in my blog too. My poetry is going well and I'm happy about that.

I still miss my friends. Part of why I'm envious of my brothers. I feel like I'm forgetting how to act my age. Like I'm ageing too fast, pressured to act like the older people in my family (I'm 19 idk why) maybe it's bcs in my mind, I'm not surrounded by people my age and texting online with friends isn't helping much. But...the month seems to be over and soon it'll be September ! I'm looking forward to it. I just...I just want to feel free again. I don't know why I can't feel as carefree as I was a month ago. Maybe I miss the people around me and it's brought me down. Either way. I'm trying ! ^_^

[Kat63]

You are trying, and it sounds like you’re doing pretty well.

Wouldn’t it be nice if people like us could just enjoy these moments? Without overthinking everything?

[DistressedPoe in reply to Kat63]

Yknow what. I think we can. With a little support, and a better routine and y'know ..a busier life. I think we can.

I'm sure when you find your job, you will be able to feel better too. Same way I will once I get back to university.

Till then, we have each other on this site to help us out.

[pink318]

Hi- Glad to hear that you had fun with your brothers. I miss my sisters, we used to do things together but now we are 10,000 miles apart but thankful that there is social media and we can communicate everyday.

Congratulations on your blog and poetry, keep it up! Take care of yourself. May God’s favor be upon you always. Keep us posted.

[DistressedPoe in reply to pink318]

Oh my I just saw this. Thank you so much !! I hope you get to spend more time with your sisters soon~~

[pink318 in reply to DistressedPoe]

Hi- Thank you.

Yes, I'm going to see my sisters this July. I miss them.

I hope you are doing fine these days, have a great day