Starting Outpatient Group Therapy tomorrow

[Righteoustakeme]

So, I’m starting an outpatient therapy group tomorrow morning, early, and I’m nervous. Not just nervous to go to the group, but nervous to drive there and try to find parking. I’m really hoping this helps, but I’m not sure. Hoping I can find some sort of hope in this group, because I will be talking with people that have some of the same issues as me...but at the same time, I’m scared it will not help. I have to go to my psychiatrist on the same day as a day where I have to go, so I’ll have to miss or at least partially miss a session, which I feel like will make me look bad even if I tell them about it. I woke up this morning feeling really down, and hopeless, like there’s no hope for my future. I don’t know what to do. I just feel like I don’t have anything left. I have an acute level of anxiety/depression...so much so that it inhibits my ability to function much less have a job or go to school like I normal person. And I’m only 22. There’s supposed to be “so much ahead of me” but honestly I just want to end it all and give up and die.

[Dolphin80]

Are u on any meds? I’ve been where u are before and meds have really helped me. Talk to doctor. Don’t be alone. Journal and talk here how you are feeling.

[Righteoustakeme in reply to Dolphin80]

Yes, I’m on 3 different kinds of meds. I’ve been talking to doctors and therapists. I’ve been journaling in my notebook and on this site. Trying so hard to just get through each day, but it’s hard. I feel like there’s nothing left.

[Dolphin80 in reply to Righteoustakeme]

I completely understand. Have u ever tried Paxil? It’s the only antidepressant really that works for me, except I switched to Prozac when I was pregnant with daughter. What about abilify? That really helped me with my depression. Today my mood is low though I think due to pms.

[Dolphin80 in reply to Righteoustakeme]

Hang in there. I know how hard it is but you have to force yourself to fight it.

[Dolphin80 in reply to Righteoustakeme]

Watch movies perhaps? Force yourself to do something that used to bring you joy? Again, I know how hard it is. Be around people. Usually when I’m depressed that’s the last thing I want to do, because I don’t want anyone finding out how bad I feel. But then if I force myself to go to the mall, a library where I at least see people, it helps. Keeping busy helps, forcing yourself to do so, because when I’m depressed I just feel like staying in bed. But I have found that if I force myself to do some chores for

Example, then I feel a little better.

[terriltwin2]

I am so inspired by your strength. Feeling down and hopeless can be a very dark place to be. You have taken the 1st step and shared you and who you are on here. Group Therapy will be good. My son goes to group and at 1st he did not want to go, however, 1 year later and he can't go without it. You are not alone. Do you have someone that is a positive support to you that may be willing to go with you, just if it is just driving you there? In your group you will find out that so many others are suffering just like you are. It will be a great support system. Don't let fear stand in your way of you getting help and healing . There is always light in our broken worlds, and you beautiful lady are making steps to get healing and I am so proud of you for that. Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow, 1 day at a time. When you get up each morning, remember, God has already given you just the right strength to get through that day. Prayers all goes well.