Feeling drained

[Ragdoll15]

Does anyone feel so drained with trying to put on a brave face, pretending that you are feeling o.k.when all you want to do is just run away and be on your own away from everyone. Is it because we don't want to cause distress to our family or maybe lose friends or even thiink we will overcome these feelings. Or is it because we feel some jealously seeing them free from these awful symptoms.

[pass-word]

we are conditioned by social conventions and norms from early childhood. Taught to put on a show, a happy fake face and to conceal our real feelings and disconnect from our true emotions. See what happens when you totally and completely relax - breathing deeply helps - and just being present without any evaluation of the situation - just being content with whatever is happening

[-Sasha-]

Sometimes I wake up and it feels like I'm already fighting back tears. Nothing has happened, I wasn't suddenly woken up, no bad dream, no event coming up that's causing me anxiety.... It's not even sadness either. It's almost like I am being smothered by an overwhelming sense of fear, heartbreak, hopelessness, and those are only the feelings I can identify. Being around people is the last thing I need at that time. Pretending only make it harder and makes you feel more alone. I completely understand wanting to run away from it.

~S~

[Ragdoll15 in reply to -Sasha-]

I know exactly how you feel. You are right pretending really is so hard it's just that people don't understand how we feel and worse still I am afraid they will think that I am abnormal in some way.

[bluestars725]

I feel like I could've written this. You're not alone; I know exactly what you mean. I feel that way all the time. For me, it's a combination of the two things you mentioned. It's beyond exhausting to put on a brave face and pretend that I feel fine when I'm really struggling with my generalized anxiety disorder and depression. It also sometimes makes me feel worse to see those around me so happy and care-free when these mental illnesses keep me from feeling that way.

[Ragdoll15 in reply to bluestars725]

Yes, I find myself making excuses not to go places with friends and family because i cannot cope. Then feel awful because I really wanted to go. Nobody understands unless they have been though this.

[bluestars725 in reply to Ragdoll15]

I understand, I do that all the time. I agree, it's so hard to explain the way mental illness impacts are ability to simply get through the day to people who don't face that battle every day. Take it one day at a time. I know that sounds cliché, but sometimes all I can do is just get through day, and that's okay. You're not alone.

[Ragdoll15 in reply to bluestars725]

Thank you.

[bluestars725 in reply to Ragdoll15]

[infogoddess04]

I'm sitting at work now trying not to cry. I'm the boss so it wouldn't look good.If I tell anyone how I really feel I might be in the hospital.