Chronic anxiety

[Kevin160]

These couple weeks were filled of low or mild anxiety, nothing too severe but it was annoying , i kept worrying about my health and getting health scares , i had a couple months anxiety free , but after my exam results and family problems , i had a couple panic attacks and i thought it was the most severe panic attack in my whole existence , so i was positive i will die ..but i dont know how i didnt , i want to try therapy but i dont want to go through the whole thing again with my family , i feel really sad all the time and im starting to feel like i deserve this somehow because im not very spiritual or i do stuff wrong sometimes , i just feel if im a good person i get hurt , if im a bad person i also get hurt while everhone else in my life just hastheit absolute best lives, i got a devestating news today and i honestly have been feeling low all day , anxiety isnt severe but it gets tense sometimes and im worried about my health , it already sucks and i keep getting dizzy , headaches, insomnia, vision problems , neck pain back pain , pain in general, heart palpitations, stomach problems, cant breath well, always feeling humgry for air gasping , really poor concentration and memory , i feel like im not even living that well ..im wasting my life but im too scared to do something , my life can be great regardless of all the struggles ..sometimes im not sure through all the family fights, my mom’s cancer treatment , my relationships with others, all the dissaspointmemts amd pressure from studying and simply just living

I honestly had alot of support when i first started this account , now i feel nothing is really working well

[AnIslandOfPeace]

You still got support and we pray you get better.

[Kevin160 in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

Thank you so much , i definately appreciate all the support i get but sometimes i still feel like im still lost , my family arent the greatest support system and im not getting any therapy , getting constant anxiety and panic attacks for weeks at a time was rough but after april i started to get anxiety only leading up to certain events , but simple events would cause that anxiety , so i started focusing on getting over my fears once again, and throughout summer i had been doing very well, mild attacks every once in a while that annoyed me but nothing extremely major, maybe a couple panic attacks all throughout summer until now , anxiety came back and its mild but it bothers me that i cant control it knowing its for no specific reason

[Needtovent]

Kevin, I haven’t been In touch for a bit. You WERE doing better and can again. I’m sorry for your troubles and not having great supports at home. First off I want you to remember some mindfulness techniques: anxiety is fueled by fear - face it. It’s just a feeling and of itself won’t hurt you. Accept it - if you feel it, it’s real, yet you need to desensitize your body so you don’t keep fueling the emotion. Over time you will be able to better cope. You know all this and maybe just need a reminder. It still helps to have someone to talk with. Is there a trusted teacher or counselor from school you can speak with? You are an amazingly mature young man but we all need support at times. Hang in there and hopefully this group can still give you some encouragement! Hugs to you kiddo!

[Kevin160 in reply to Needtovent]

There isnt really someone at my school i just graduated and its difficult not having anyone i can turn to , im doing ok these few days , i can still function and do everything normally, im meditating and doing breathing exercises, every single fear i have i face, but sometimes i feel anxious because i feel im not strong enouh to face life, and i dont know how im going to face that ..

[Crimson913 in reply to Kevin160]

I am in the same situation. I can go like a month with only very mild anxiety and then I get a bad report at work or feel like I did something wrong at work and then I spiral. Breathing exercises stop working and my adrenaline starts coursing through my body. My stomach gets upset and feels like millions of dread butterflies are in there. Medications help but work and Money stress make my anxiety go crazy. Hope you feel better soon.

[Kevin160 in reply to Crimson913]

Thank you for your feedback, i totally understand , on normal days the mild anxiety goes away easily , maybe through breathing techniques or distractions or anything , but sometimes when anything wrong happens i spiral into overthinking and fear over irrational things and treat things like my live depend on it , and start making worst case scenarios

[Needtovent in reply to Kevin160]

Well congrats on graduating! That’s an accomplishment. Perhaps a local community clinic is a place to start. What else is going on? Looking for a job, moving on toward college? Those are both stressors and can tweak things. A volunteer position might be less stressful, while boosting your confidence and adding to your resume as well. Many organizations could benefit from your assistance. But a community clinic is a good place to start to help you sort through this tough patch. Whether it’s meds or therapy or both. If not local, get on the phone and find one and make that be your mission. More hugs for today! Xoxo

[Kevin160 in reply to Needtovent]

Thank you so much for the support and help ❤️❤️

[Junella]

It takes time and practice. You are fortunate to be recognizing and dealing with this in your youth. I wish I had. We didn't know much about it then and family did not understand. Otherwise it follows you throughout life, but even so you have solutions to fall back on.

[Kevin160 in reply to Junella]

Thank you so much

[Junella]

I had many of those symptoms--nothing is wrong. Dizziness kept me panicked a lot of the time. It was triggered by a medical visit. I needed to find the right doctor as well who would not frighten me but still take me seriously. They are hard to find. I found hope in my faith when I practiced daily prayer whenever I needed it. I don't think I would have recovered without it--and with people as well. Having social support that strengthens faith is necessary.

[Kevin160 in reply to Junella]

I had the same problem, my health anxiety was triggered by a doctors visit, he measured mymbp and i was anxious at the time , then he started talking about the risks of high bp which i dont have being young and healthy and fit , anyway this caused alot of fears because i didnt know alot about bp at the time and all the anxiety got to me , since then and im struggling, its not his fault but i wish doctors would be more considerate

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

Hi Kevin I’ve been where you are so many times I can barely count. One massive issue with having anxiety especially when it’s chronic is the need for instant relief. Firstly let me say that Therapy is a massive help for me personally it really is a huge part of recovery. Another thing is that all the little things that start to go right like getting a good night sleep seeing a good friend really does do the wood of good or even just having a chuckle at something that will make you feel like yourself again. But I think the best thing you can do is accept that you feel the things you feel almost welcome it so you totally disarm it. I know it sounds a bit crazy a d simplistic but it was some advice I got given on here a few days ago and it really helped me gain perspective it’s not always perfect but it certainly is a calming affect. One thing I will say this to remember is that instant relief is a temporary solution to a long term problem. With therapy and time these things will become easier to manage and then will disappear I promise and if you ever need anything just drop me a message