Life keeps kicking me down

[Unimportant]

Life has been kicking me down since my dog passed January 2. That’s when I started to get depressed. Between that and school and then work I’m miserable. My best friend doesn’t speak to me very much she’s usually with someone else and now my boyfriend and I broke up. I would look forward to the weekends just to get to see him and I’m so broken hearted about it. It’s taking everything in me not to cry and not to text him. I feel so alone and I wish I just want to go to bed and not wake up in the morning. I don’t know what to do anymore😭😭 I feel like I’m drowning and I can’t get to the surface every time I get close I keep getting pulled down😭😭

[graciouslytaken]

Are there any support groups at school you can reach out to? Are you and your ex in a place where you could reach out to him for support and he can be there for you as a friend?

[Unimportant in reply to graciouslytaken]

Not that I’m aware of I go to a small University and I don’t think we have any groups and as for my boyfriend he keeps telling me he misses me and he’s sorry but I’m really trying to help myself right now and I want to go back to him so bad but it probably is better for me if I don’t

[graciouslytaken in reply to Unimportant]

It sounds like you know what you want, and that’s good.

I would talk to the university admissions/student services and ask if there are any type of counseling services or something to that effect.

[pink83737]

You’re definitely not alone, I feel like we are going through similar things especially with your dog, mine passed away in november on her birthday unexpectedly and i didn’t even get to say goodbye...it tears me apart that i didn’t get to say bye to her. We had her since I was 3 so she lived a pretty long time. It’s hard it really is but time heals, yes you will still think about your dog some days and that is them letting know they are okay. I bet our dogs are playing with each other in doggy heaven! Stay strong and keep your head up, you’re never alone in this, feel free to PM me if you’d like to be friends!

[Xenia33 in reply to pink83737]

I'm very sorry about your loss.

[pink83737 in reply to Xenia33]

Thanks! You too.

[Xenia33]

Boy do I know how you feel. I too lost my dog last October. She was only 8 years old and it was sudden. I was so very broken hearted and still am. The first few months all I did was cry and miss her. Now it is 4 months later and I still am crying and miss her. But I am handling it better as time goes on. She was the sweetest dog and my shadow. The total unconditional love from her that I felt was overwhelming (in a good way). So just know that there is someone feeling just as bad as you. It too put me in a deep depression and when I wasn't in my depression it was anxiety.

My daughter goes to a small University and I do know that they offer counseling. Do what graciouslytaken has suggested.

School will get better and the semester will end. Your job sounds like it is just one of those things you need to get through.

As for your boyfriend - I think a telling thing that you said was your response to graciouslytaken. That even though "he keeps telling me he misses me and he’s sorry but I’m really trying to help myself right now and I want to go back to him so bad but it probably is better for me if I don’t" you know that it is not good for you to go back to him at this time. You have to get stronger before you do that. Believe me that I know exactly what you are saying. I had a very similar experience when I was in college. I think if you know it would be better not to go back to him than you shouldn't. One thing we don't do well is learn to trust our instincts. I think you need to follow that instinct.

Your name "unimportant" is wrong - you are important. Several people reached out to reply to your post so that should show you that you are important. There is someone who cares about how you are feeling right now and you are most definitely not alone. Please don't go to bed and not get up. The best you can do right now is get out of that bed and keep going. If you stop, it is always going to keep you down. I know this from experience. Just recently I wrote a post on it but I gained strength through the people who answered my post and I knew that they cared.

Just hang in there, you won't drown and you will get to the surface. Please pm me if you want to talk. I will be there. Take care.

[APOR2017]

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. I completely understand how you feel and was there not long ago. I will say that it made men better and stronger. Take it day by day. Find things that you enjoy doing. I picked up running again and am running my 12th race this weekend. It helps me set my minion something else that is productive and then I can be accomplished and proud of myself. It is more meaningful to me, to be proud of myself than be "busy" with others. I believe in you and I am so sorry that you are facing this but I do believe you will come out stronger.