Bad day...

[Raiinbow08]

Hey guys, I went to the doctor today. I have been feeling really sick now.

For a little over a week now and finally upped the courage to go to the doctor. I was having what felt like heart attack symptoms.

-palpitations

-shortness of breath

-dizziness

-headaches

-tightness in the chest

-sharp pains on the right side

I had an EKG today and was surprised with the results. She said it was the healthiest picture of an EKG that she had seen in her life. She said you should really feel good about that. My blood pressure was good also. But in reality how the hell can I feel good? At this weight, that has me literally pounds away from being in the 300s. I’d rather die than let myself become such a heavy person and a burden on my family. It’s like I almost wanted her to tell me I had something so it would be motivation enough to change my life around. But no she said everything was perfect. Now for the symptoms I am having she diagnosed me with depression and said the symptoms sound more for anxiety. She prescribed medicine for

-anxiety

-depression

-medicine for my acid reflux

-and vitamin D

I am currently weighing 291.6 pounds. I am so depressed it’s like I don’t love myself. Since September when I stopped working I have gained 17 pounds. 17 pounds in 5 months. I have had no luck finding a job. I’m ready more than ready to give up. I can’t stand this. It is impossible for me to lose weight on my own I have no motivation at all. To make all matters worse when getting the EKG I had to lay flat on my back for a period of time, which does not work well for me because I am so heavy that it hurts to lay on my back so after they finished getting the EKG I went to get up and I felt an excruciating pain in my lower back like I pulled something. I could not walk at all, it hurts to sit, or stand forward. I am in pain and can barely walk.

Or lay in bed. I told the doctor but she just put it off telling me to take ibuprofen and put a heating pad on my back. Ugh fucking fantastic way to start off the weekend.

[Raiinbow08]

Right now I’m having the symptoms again. This is all to much for me, I can not deal. The medicine for the anxiety that was prescribed she also said could have a symptom for weight gain. NO THANKS the last thing I need on my plate is additional weight. This is why I refuse to take long term medicine.

[AZ1970]

I can sooooo relate. I’m in the same boat as far as my weight is concerned. My health is good. The pain from the extra weight makes doing things difficult and painful. I fell at work yesterday and really got scared. I realized how close I am to losing my mobility. Thank goodness nothing is broken. Just swollen and painful. Perhaps we can chat sometime.

[Raiinbow08 in reply to AZ1970]

Sure thing sometimes we need some motivation from others to actually start doing something about it and to keep one self motivated and held accountable.

[Raiinbow08 in reply to AZ1970]

Anytime!

[Raiinbow08 in reply to AZ1970]

And sorry about your fall hope you are alright! 😊

[Jeff1943]

You should give thanks to whoever rather than feel depressed: your heart is strong and fine. If it wasn't your heart could be managed but never returned to normal.

Excess weight, on the other hand, can be over come and you can return to normal. Why not talk to your doctor about ways to lose weight via weight loss groups, it's much easier to lose weight if you're part of a group.

When you lose weight it will offer you a new life where you will find both happiness and new interests. But the first step must come from you. But I promise you this, once you lose the excess weight you will never put it back on so great are the rewards.

I too am overweight, I have lost 3 pounds over the past month. It's a start but I have several stone to lose. You are not alone. I wish you luck and God's speed on your journey to a new life.

Start now!

[Needtovent]

Sorry to hear about a crap day. Glad to hear your overall health is good. Gotta pull the good out of this! I tend to be the opposite in that I can't eat when anxiety is high. However, I did start packing on weight a while back, and have learned that my overall love of food is an issue. Anyway point is, I'm a lifetime WW. Feel free to PM if you'd like to discuss!