Does it ever get better

[Sky2016]

I have been sad for quite some times. I mask it by keeping busy. I have been told by my husband that he can only be around me when he’s high on marijuana. I am not a band person or mean person. I think I have stopped loving him from all of his abuse. He asked why I won’t have sex with him. Maybe if you were nice. I ask God to forgive me if I have offended or hurt anybody. I want to be loved cared for. I want someone to just tell me they love me. I have made peace with myself. I have told myself it he won’t love me and respect me in this life. I know in the after life I will have that. God promise me that the day I was born. So I guess it does get better in the afterlife.

[kenster1]

hi I am sorry to read of your struggles and sorry to read of your husbands behaviour.no question things got to change or you will have to think about yourself and move out.forget the afterlife you deserve better in this life the here and now.sounds like he has you on a lead as they say but you have to break free if hes not willing to change.put yourself first for a change you can still get out of life what you really want.

[Xenia33]

I'm sorry. I know exactly what you mean. My husband's behavior has changed our marriage and hurt our children to where I don't think it can be repaired. I haven't made peace with it though. I can't even watch a movie or go to the store - the husbands that I see that are nice to their wives make me just want to cry. It is so hard sometimes and overwhelming. If you can please remember that you are not alone. I care and you are loved. I will pray for God to give you strength.

[Sky2016 in reply to Xenia33]

Thank you so much. All of my children live at home. If I leave they would leave too as they have seen the abuse. They don’t speak to him at all. It’s like we all avoid him in one way or the other. I quit my job in 2017 after 7 years of constant abuse at home and work I figure there would be no reason for him to abuse me or accuse me of anything. Boys was I wrong. I make a living by selling gelo. I make all shapes and sizes. I have a huge order for tomorrow and I can’t even go to the store with being punish or what my daughter calls it hell for me. I can’t leave as I have no meAns of finacial support. I am Hispanic and we live in silence. I was taugh dirty laundry washes at home. I don’t have friends and the one and only friend I did have he forbids me talking to her. I don’t tell anybody about the abuse. My kids they don’t say anything to anyone as well. I am here because this is the only place I can vent and feel like someone cares.

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry to hear this. It’s an awful feeling when your spouse you once loved dearly betrays you by breaking your heart. This is emotional abuse, and you deserve better. I put up with it for 2 years, trying to repair my marriage. It doesn’t work. You can’t change people. You have to be brave and strong enough to say no more, I deserve better. It’s very scary and it will be hard, but you will survive and you will be better off. As the other person said, forget the afterlife, you deserve to be happy in THIS life. I don’t mean to step on toes if for religious reasons and you don’t believe in divorce, but abuse is abuse. I hope you do some soul searching and find answers 💓

[Sky2016 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much. Just knowing that a random person cares more than a person I have spend 20+ years Thank you.

[pink318]

Hi- I’m very sorry to hear about your struggles. I have a sister who went through emotional abuse and it was difficult for my whole family knowing one of my sisters was going through pain.

I pray for strength you need to keep going and you will stay strong. Please keep us posted. I hope you will get the support you need through this forum. God bless.

[Calm_mama]

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