Upset

[IloveMary]

I went to see my case worker and we were doing papers and talking then I got very very bad pain in my head and fell on the floor my case worker call 911 and sent me to the hospital they gave me something in my IV and the next min I was having a very bad panic attack it was so bad that I pulled my IV out was bleeding all over the floor and all they did was clean it up and put in a new IV in and had some one watching me I just want it to die but I knew my 7 month old baby needs me..I am starting to feel that way again and I just don't know what to do I can't take care of my baby tonight I am afraid I may hurt him and I love him so much..

[Agora1]

Mary, you need to make a call to 911 or your social worker. Keeping your baby safe

is a priority.

[IloveMary in reply to Agora1]

I don't want them to take my baby away from me I am a good mom I am I would do anything for him..

[Agora1 in reply to IloveMary]

I believe you Mary. I don't want that to happen to you either.

We all need help at times and that doesn't make us a bad person.

[dore13 in reply to IloveMary]

I am sorry you are not well Mary, but you can't be a good mom right now. It isn't because you don't love your child, it is because your medical condition is not under control. If you truly love your child, you have to make decisions that are best for the child. The best decision is to have someone else take care of the baby until you are well enough too. You have to get your medical condition under control, until you do, you are risking the safety and well being of your own baby. Is that being a good mother? Please call 911 or go to the hospital and work with social services, you may be apart for the baby for some time, but think what is best for the baby. Right now, you are not thinking clearly. Please get teh help you need, then take care of your baby.

[IloveMary in reply to dore13]

I call my friend and she came and took me to the hospital and they gave me more pills I just thing I am on to many pills and it is messing me all up..I don't want any one to take my baby away from me he is the only one that keeps me wanting to live with out him I don't want to live...

[dore13 in reply to IloveMary]

If you don't want to live, you are not well enough to care for your child!!!! The only reason they would release you from the hospital is if you say you are well enough to leave. Look at your message, you only mention what you want and what you need, like a child. You are not putting in the your message " for the good of my child" I need to get help, I need someone to care for my child until I am well enough to....... all I see is you being selfish , because of your wants , your needs. Does that make you a good mother? You need serious help, your child is in danger from you! If you want to be a GOOD mother, do the RIGHT thing. You have in a message, you are afraid of hurting your baby. Do you understand how serious that is? You need to be mature enough to do the right thing for your baby.

[aaronm in reply to dore13]

To Mary I wish to say I disagree with your comment dore. This is awful harsh! Check her more recent post. I think she's doing quite well.

[IloveMary in reply to dore13]

If you look at what I said it says that my FRIEND is going to be with me for the weekend and now I am telling you that we will see how Monday is if I need more help with my BABY I am ASKING my FRIENDS to HELP me so my BABY will be SAFE and I will be with him and I am not SELFISH if I was I would not ask for HELP your words hurt ...

[Agora1]

Mary, is there someone who can help you with the baby tonight?

So you can take care of just you?

[IloveMary in reply to Agora1]

No I have try to call my friend just waiting for her to call me back

[Agora1 in reply to IloveMary]

that sounds like a plan. It might help to have your friend support you

as well.

[Agora1]

If you need to talk Mary, there are enough of us around including myself that

would be happy to support you. Is there anything you usually do when feeling

like this?

[IloveMary in reply to Agora1]

My friend came and took me to the hospital and they gave me more pills to take and they make me sleep...Thank you for the kind ones

[Agora1 in reply to IloveMary]

Unfortunately, medications of that sort do cause tiredness but hopefully it

will pull you through until you see your caseworker on Monday.

I'm wishing you some answer and help. Stay safe Mary, we care about you xx

[IloveMary in reply to Agora1]

Thank you you take care

[Agora1 in reply to IloveMary]

Mary, good luck tomorrow with your caseworker. I will keep you in my thoughts. xx

[IloveMary in reply to Agora1]

Thank you I will let you know how it goes have a good night..

[IloveMary in reply to Agora1]

I went to see my case worker and he told me that I can get help with my baby and help me get though this with out my baby being taking away.. He ask me if that would be ok for some one to come to my home 7 days 7 am - 3 pm -3 pm-11 pm -11 pm - 7 am..I told him yes yes that would be great thank you he said it will start Wednesday at 7 am so my friend told me that she will stay with me until they come .they will do this until Feb 20 but if I need more help they can go longer so I will give it a try for my baby to stay with me and he will be safe ..Thank you for being my friend and giving me time to get the help I need to keep my baby not like that one that say hurtful words to me...I hope you have a good night ttys

[Eowyn7]

Hi - i don't think I've ever messaged with you before but my advice is please do call your case worker! You need all the support you can get right now so call anyone who might be able to help. It is the right thing to do, even if it is scary. I hope that you feel better in the days to come. If you need someone to talk to, I am here!

[IloveMary in reply to Eowyn7]

Thank you I am trying but as far as my case worker I have to wait until Monday I was taking to the hospital and was giving more pills and they make me sleep..

[tamka38]

So u are having a rough time right now praying things get better for u. What did the doctor say about your head pain

[IloveMary in reply to tamka38]

The Dr can't do anything for me but give me pills for the pain..

[tamka38 in reply to IloveMary]

Are u having migraines?

[IloveMary in reply to tamka38]

No it feels like some one is stabbing you in the head

[tamka38 in reply to IloveMary]

I just got a EEG on my head to figure out what going on? Can u go back to the ER? That sounds painful

[IloveMary in reply to tamka38]

I had a MRI and got a CT done and it is very painful

[tamka38 in reply to IloveMary]

What did the MRI and CT test come back saying

[IloveMary in reply to tamka38]

They said that I have a tumor in my head

[tamka38 in reply to IloveMary]

Oh sorry to hear that, have they check it to see if is cancer? My mom just found out she have a brain tumor and see the Nero on the 24th of this month

[IloveMary in reply to tamka38]

The Dr said that it is not but wants to keep a eye on it

[tamka38 in reply to IloveMary]

I will be praying for u we didn’t know my mom had a brain tumor until she had her first seizure

[IloveMary in reply to tamka38]

Thank you the Dr has me on some pills to help with the Seizure the both said to try it and come back on this Wednesday and see about the MRI and the CT that was done so they will be able to see what they can do for me..

[tamka38 in reply to IloveMary]

Oh sorry didn’t know u was having seizures. Hope they have answers for

You soon

[IloveMary in reply to tamka38]

Thank you but the pills are helping so far but I have to go see the Dr on Wednesday..

[tamka38 in reply to IloveMary]

Praying everything goes well

[IloveMary in reply to tamka38]

Thank you