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Today was my first day of out patient program... very draining, couple bad panic moments. They changed my meds again... started Zoloft last Sat 25 mg (?, lowdosage). Zero energy, unhappy stomach ( nausea & bathroom type), barely eatting. Now starting lexapero super lowdosage, 1/2 a pill to start. 4 different meds in like a year... not fun. Trying to chill so I can go to the anxiety class tonight- something my therapist wanted me to do before all this went down. My case worker thinks it would be helpful. More tools more support get me better. Well I just got a text from my mom saying she's getting offered a job in Boise(she currently lives near me, my sister moved there last year) I haven't even told her what's going on.... have major abondment issues all stemming from her. I can't deal with this... bawled to my husband on phone. He's going to talk to my mom, cause I can't.

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Awwwww Mel, im definitely sending you tons of crushing hugs sweetheart 💜💜💜💜💜

Thank you Sunflower. Sending you zillion hugs back. Love love you ❤🌻❤🌻❤🌻❤🌻❤

How's your day so far hun, i need you here so you have to get better and you will, all of us are cheering you on Mel 😚

Danielle ❤ I need you here too... yes we will beat this. Considering everything I'm am okay. Appetite is back, which is good, taking it easy. Marathon of The X-Files on, so I'm happy. If I take Hans on a walk I'll call today a win. Give Spidey a big hug for me. 😙 ❤ ya

Any updates Mel, how are you 💙

I'm hanging in there. 😊❤ I'll post thanks for reminding me.

Oh Mel, I'm so sorry in what you are going through. I know right now it seems as if the suffering is endless but I assure you this is the hardest time. Once you get situated on your meds and the right dosage along with out patient therapy, things will start improving.

I was in a dark place once so I know how frightened you are. You will be okay, You will make it through this dark period, You will smile again.

Love you dear friend. You've been so good to me. Now it's my turn to be there for you.

You're not alone Mel. This forum adores you. You've made so many friends. This is your time now to take care of yourself. When I was in your place, I pushed everyone aside so I

could concentrate on getting well again. And you will too.

Putting my arms around you and sending you a virtual hug. You are going to get through this, I promise. And I'll be right behind you supporting you all the way. xx

melbrown in reply to Agora1

❤❤❤Agora1, what would we do without you? Thank you sweetheart. You are there for so many of us... it's an honor to be there for you. You are my friend & I love you.

I am trying real hard to believe it gets better. To realize it's okay to be a bit selfish. I need to focus on getting healthy, better.

So many hugs & love to you.

(((HUGS)))) and more ((((HUGS)))) for you Mel. I totally understand abandonment issues. You have a lot going on, but you are being proactive with your mental/emotional health needs. You have many friends and tons of love and support here. Take care of you and keep connecting with others who understand. We will always be here for you.

❤ Thank you hunter4ransom. Needed that. Abondment issues are tough, glad their others who understand. Trying to focus on those who I know give me support right now & that I'm doing the right thing. Love & hugs to you.

You’re on the right track, melbrown... I’m sorry you’re going through all of this, but you’re taking all the right steps to get better. Keep it up! Hugs.

melbrown in reply to LMCello

😊❤ LMCello, thanks. Been telling myself that I'm doing the right thing. Hope you are doing well. Hugs ❤


Awww Mel, I'm sorry to hear what you said about your mom, I really feel for you, it was my dad for me. I'm here if you need me, I hope you know that??? Wishing you a fast recovery from how you're feeling. Joy, love & dump trucks of hugs for you beautiful!

melbrown in reply to Hidden

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤Anxiett_59, of course I know you are there. No matter how dark it may get for me, o could never forget our friendship. Love you. Big 🐻 hugs .

Hidden in reply to melbrown

I love you soooooo!!!!!!!!!! Did you treat yourself to something today? Love & Hugs!!!

You will get through. You will push through to the bright side. Go at your own pace and take good care. So many love you and are here for you (((((((Gentle Hug))))))))

melbrown in reply to Starrlight

((((hugs)))) Those are words I'm trying to believe. Thank you. Love & hugs Starrlight❣

Starrlight in reply to melbrown


melbrown in reply to Starrlight

Love you too. ❤

Geeezzzz mel....I am so sorry honey..... this is exactly what you don't need right now. You have a ginormous family here for support too, and you know I know the Mom thing....abandonment issues.... just seems like we can't get cut a brake sometimes....but if you can....some way....this is your time right now.... your getting what sounds like some really good possibilities for help and understanding....try to focus on you mel..take some of that motilium or emodium stuff for the's over the counter and really works

..and I am still here for you, always....please if you want to talk about any of that stuff that comes up please pm me...... I know the pain babe....I really do.

melbrown in reply to fauxartist

Fauxartist, my ray of light. Thank you so much... I knew you would understand the abondment issues. The little girl in me is hurting a lot... Trying to show her there's a ton of love for her. It's hard, but I'm trying.

On the plus side, tummy is feeling a bit better. Appetite is slowly coming back. 🙂❤❤❤

Thinking of you Melbrown💕

melbrown in reply to Starrlight


This is so weird. I started Zoloft too last week too and I’m having the same symptoms. I’ve been on it before and I remember liking it a lot. But I feel sick and like I’m going downhill. Keep us updated! I hope you feel better 🤗

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