Today was supposed to be a good day. I planned on going to the gym and then I had an appointment with my therapist. Anxiety had been building for a couple days after a really good couple days with the government shutdown.
I woke up and eventually got out of bed, and my dog collapsed. We took him to the emergency room and found out he was bleeding internally.
I had to cancel my gym appointment and therapy session to care for my good boy. Thankfully I just got word he got through the surgery and is resting.
Ever since we drove him to the hospital, my day has been up and down and it seems like I am really trying to force the ups. There have even been a few times where I have thought this struggle isn't even worth it cause life is meaningless anyways. Luckily these thoughts are fleeting and I remind myself that life is not meaningless. I truly believe that everyone of us is here for a reason even if we dont understand that reason.
I managed to get to work and have already scheduled a new appointment with my therapist.
Sorry for the bit of a ramble but just had to get a few things out there. Any advice or reassurance would be awesome.