Been struggling

[Cilove1993]

So I reached out to a text crisis line that referred me to this community for support.

I'll introduce myself a little first- I am 25. I have 2 children and I work 2 jobs as a single mom to stay afloat but they are career oriented in the human service field. I have struggled with depression since I was 14 years old including therapists and medications and even a hospitalization when I was in high schooI.

Let me just start my issues with this year has been rough. My family experiences 2 suicide attempts within a month of each other one my aunt and one my brother, both failed thankfully. I am also currently struggling with the dating world.. Been seeing a guy for about 6 months now and it's been going good besides his drama with his children's mother. I have a tendency of settling for less because of my fear of being alone and filling the void I understand that is a flaw and I should focus on myself before going into a relationship. I've been thinking about breaking up with him because of this reason but with holiday season and mt depression already really bad I want his support and love more than anything. Any support right now would help I just needed somewhere to vent.

[Iloveart7]

Welcome, I'm srr you are struggling. (((Hugs)))

[Cilove1993 in reply to Iloveart7]

Thanks

[tamka38]

Hi and welcome

[Cilove1993 in reply to tamka38]

Hi, thank you

[Hidden]

I am sorry you are struggling right now, and its completely understandable you want to cling to him during this time.

When you are ready you will put yourself and your children first, and leave him and his dramas behind.

The first step in moving on is acceptance.

Sending you hugs.

3BrokenHearts

[Cilove1993 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks

[AZ1970]

I am glad you found us. It sounds like you have your hands full! I commend you for reaching out for help. That takes strength and bravery. I too have settled in relationships. I agree with 3BrokenHearts that you will take action when you are ready. You need to keep things as calm as possible for yourself right now. Do your best to distance yourself from his drama. Perhaps you can set some boundaries around this? You will find support here. Hugs!

[Cilove1993 in reply to AZ1970]

Thank you it is him who needs to set boundaries with her and I feel like if he can't do that for our relationship then that will have to be my quitting point because it's just going to get worse. I have never had to deal with a baby mama this terrible before. I try already to steer clear and let him deal with it but she has threatened to start drama at my sons events that she is present at also and is ruining even wanting to go for me. I've just been shutting down lately.

[Florida1959]

Welcome, this is a great forum, the beginning is to accept things, and take one step at a time, this is the worst season for taking drastic steps, be kind to yourself, and look after those children, my grandchildren are no longer a part of my life, due to my sons ex, and it’s awful, but I pray they will come back one day, baby steps, hugs x

[Blainewood]

This season is a good time to think about Jesus and why he came to earth. He loves us and wants to have a relationship with us. Yes he is still alive. May I be so bold and ask if you have ever sought out a relationship with him? If not maybe this would be a good time. Seek out a church near you and begin the journey now. Merry Christmas.

[Cilove1993 in reply to Blainewood]

I have been going to church since early November watch it online live when I cant be there in person cause of work. It does help.

[Blainewood in reply to Cilove1993]

So glad to hear that. Have you put you faith in Christ and been baptized? If not seek out a pastor at the church and discuss the journey of faith with him. Good way to get involved in a faith community.

[Cilove1993 in reply to Blainewood]

Yes when i was younger i was baptized and I get some people are really religious but don't try to push religion on others it's something someone has to find themselves and for themselves.

[Blainewood in reply to Cilove1993]

I agree. It is personal journey to faith but it is nice to have relationship with fellow travelers.

[Barbasol]

Welcome! This is a great place!

[Cilove1993 in reply to Barbasol]

Thank you

[pink83737]

Hello welcome! We are all here for you x