Struggling

[Sydney1020]

I’ve been struggling for the past 5 years with depression and anxiety-related conditions. I have friends with similar issues as I have but nothing they tell me is really helping me as much as it helps them. I’m prescribed medication and I can’t even get myself to take it half of the time. I have crying spells that can last for hours, usually for no reason at all. I lash out at the people I love because I just can’t control my emotions at all. I haven’t been able to eat properly for the past year and I’ve lost so much weight that I can’t gain back because I either have no appetite or i can’t hold it down. Working is miserable and I usually can’t keep my emotions together to get through a shift. I get stomach pain and headaches all caused by anxiety. Can anyone else understand what I’m going through? I feel like no one has the same issues that I have and I feel very alone. My boyfriend helps as much as he can he’s amazing, but like I said no one really understands what it is I’m going through.

[Kat63]

If you’ve got medication, I’m guessing you’re seeing a doctor - right?

If you are also having talk therapy, do you find that it’s helping? CBT is a type of therapy that is often recommended for depression and anxiety.

[Sydney1020 in reply to Kat63]

I have a psychiatrist but I don’t currently see a therapist. I’ve been meaning to get around to it but I’ve had a hard time getting around to a lot of things lately. I’ll look into that thank you!

[JAYnLA]

We understand here, Sydney. You probably can't come up with a scenario that isn't familiar to the people who post here. You are not alone at all, and there is hope for healing. Keep looking for the things that do work for you and keep doing them, even when you don't want to. That's the kind of day I'm having today. Did I want to take my dog on a second walk? No - but I needed it as much as he did.

[Sydney1020 in reply to JAYnLA]

I think that’s one of the worst parts for me is feeling like no one understands how I feel. I know when I’m being irrational I just can’t stop it. I feel so out of control of my emotions and even actions sometimes. Thank you I appreciate your reply💛

[JAYnLA in reply to Sydney1020]

Maybe this will be helpful - notice that all periods of feeling irrational pass. Every time. This helps me a lot.

[trimmso]

Hi Sydney

In my humble opinion your are trying to change too many mental health issues at once and spreading yourself too thinly and going below self preservation.

This is an impossible task and what you need to do is choose 1 or at most 2 issues that bother you the most and work on them but holding your other demons in abeyance for later.

Personally I would choose just one issue say lashing out at people as this action looked at in the cold light of day is not nice, selfish and will eventually drive people away most probably only so they dont get upset themselves.

just focus your mindset only on lashing out 24/07 and the many reasons for your sake and the people receiving your lashes why it is not nice for either of you and so if you did not do it and the receiver did not receive it both your quality of lives would be so much sweeter and rational.

Once a pattern of your lashing out starts to dimminish and you are pleased with the results that I expect others will be pleased with too start thinking about the next monster that causes your life disruption and pain and repeat the process.

Take your time as you have been suffering for 5 years so a month to sort out 1 issue will not be a long exercise.

In addition dont forget that God forbid but if in the future you are ever in a compromising/threatened/vulnerable situation that you will still have a right to lash out if it is the appropriate action for the ongoing issue.

You might consider my advice mumble jumble or good but I have corrected a lot my my own psyhcological misgivings this way and it worked for me.

Good luck