I believe I won't find love. I am ugly, thin, boring, and socially awkward. I feel so bad about myself. And I got low self esteem can't even love myself. I am an asshole. Sorry for my language but I can't love myself, I won't be able to love others and this is why I don't got friends. The only thing I like to do is read. And watch some movies, but anything else I have a blind eye for. But this is not the person I want to be. I know I'm kind and I like helping people just I struggle to get to know them. I keep myself distant. And I don't know myself.