What am I even doing?

[_Mr_Nobody_]

It's 7am and I haven't slept. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. What's the point of anything anymore. Why am typing here. Everything is so meaningless. I got my hopes up, thinking that this time I'm going to be better, this time I'm going to do better. What a fucking joke. I just need to accept the truth I can't escape myself. There's just one way this ends and I'm too much of a coward to even do it. Fuck. Maybe it's time to be brave and do what's necessary.

Sorry to have wasted everyones time here.

I'm done

[_Mr_Nobody_]

Just a scarf and some sleeping pills is all I need

[Gingerbreadman1978]

morning mr nobody don’t dwell on negative thoughts they just get worse aim mainly on positive good thoughts if you can what ever problems you have see how the best way to solve them try and do one good thing every day do your good deed for the day by helping some one in any way you can you will feel better and will be much appreciated and will do your self esteem a power of good you can’t run away from yourself just ask your self why would you ?what is the problem with me ? That’s not the brave thing to do what you think is necessary Not at all the brave thing is to face your demons like standing up to a bully it ain’t easy but once you do it that bully ain’t coming back you have not wasted any ones time on here it’s a great place to unfold and people on here seem supportive so don’t do anything stupid you know what I mean by your comments any time you want a chat feel free gingerbreadman 👍

[Hidden]

I feel the same dude. Coming from a conservative family and have extreme perfectionism. I feel like I am actually going crazy. Anyway, I wish there was some advice. I guess I hope you get to eat some good delicious sweets today and take a shower and take a nap. It is going to take a lot of time to get better. It sounds like you have extreme depression and depression like cancer doesn't go away by any miracle unfortunately a hard truth I don't accept. All the best.

[Tealpillow]

You haven’t wasted our time - I personally appreciate your posts and vulnerability because it helps me feel less alone and weird for having the same thoughts/feelings.

Depression lies to us and makes us believe things that aren’t true (you do matter, and you aren’t a nobody). I can’t remember if you said you were on medication but if not, please get in touch with your Dr to let them know the severity of your feelings.

I hope you can come back and let us know if you are physically ok.

[bonkers65]

Let time pass and it will get better. Maybe not perfect but bearable.

[PeaceNeed]

I share your feelings. But keep one thing in mind and I have this from personal experience.

If you exercise free will and survive things might get worse.

[BrahmNm]

I understand your fillings.