Many of you have counseled me to continue opening up with some of the burden I have been bottling up inside. I promise you I am not just seeking attention. I am a very private person who has never trusted well. Here on this site I am trying to break this pattern About a year ago, I had been sick for 13 weeks. I didn't know what it was and I can only guess now. I think it started with a horrendous fall I had when climbing out of my bed. I nearly killed my dog, wound up cut and bruised all over and scared to within an inch of my life. Anyway, 13 weeks later after being ignored by my roommate. I finally went to the ER. I was told that if I had waited 2 to 6 weeks more, I would have died. That's when I was diagnosed wiith Hypokalemia. The hospital restored my postassium and magnesium but said I couldn't live by myself anymore. I needed observation by someone. My roommate of 22 years, took exception to this, claiming I must have said something bad about him to the social workers in order for them to say that. I hadn't said anything though. His final response was to kick me out onto the street! This is one of the most bitterest blows I've taken in my life!! Alone and homeless, I managed to get into City Gospel Mission homeless shelter. It was like night and day. For a country boy to live in a gangster/prison type setting was a true nightmare. For 6 weeks I barely spoke a word. I was bitter, sick to my core and angry with the world. My mental health took a severe blow too. But 6 weeks in a young counselor named Moriah began to penetrate through my disollusionment . She was the angel at the end of my second poem. She brought me back to life and worked together to restore some equilibrium in my heart. For the remaining 4.5 months she mothered me, counseled me and let me talk as long as i wanted. She even helped me cry out some hurt. But, I had to leave her at the 6 month mark. That nearly devastated me all over. While I was there, my Hypokalemia plagued me badly, causing me to pass out, 4 times! Though I tried 2 different doctors they were completely ineffective. But, with Moriah's help, I got into a group home where I am today. Somedays I am still bitter and disallusioned by what happened. What message should I have taken from this? Maybe my friends out there can help me with this. I hope you don't think less of me because I am now living in the system and not taking care of myself. I am not who I was before all this began and some days I struggle to figure out who I am....Thanks for listening. I luv you all out there in ADAA land!
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Such a heartfelt post JEG325. I really feel like I understand you better now. Thank you so much for sharing. Gemmalouise xx
Thank you for that. I don't think I've had the pleasure, ST but, your words were also heartfelt. You can pm me anytime you want. I cherish each & every friend I make!
I know who you are. You are amazing and a fighter a helper and a winner.
Thank you for that, S. You have had a direct hand in shaping who I've become now. Quite simply, I'm the one who tries to do everything I can that you would approve of. Need I say more?
Thank you JEG for being so transparent. I admire you for doing that. I’m so sorry for what you have been through. I’m here for you just as you have been here for me. I’m so glad you are in a safe
Place and Moriah was such a great help to you. We are all struggling with so much. I appreciate all if you. I had felt suicidal this morning and had gotten replies, but now can’t find them to reaf them. JEG, I found yours and you are a great help. You have great insight into the human spirit. Thank you for your kind words.
Southpark, I am not perfect. Sometimes that gets drive home to me. I am having a non malady problem right now. It's not going well but, can only be talked about privately. I think you are an awesome person and that you completely underestimate yourself. Do not judge yourself by the world around you. Look inward, examine your heart and see what it says. I have read many of you responses. You care. You are concerned with others too. As long as you can and are doing that then you know you are a worthy person. Who cares what others think? If you help people it's gonna come back around to you eventually. I knew you were a good person a long time ago. So just tell life, 'I'm Southpark, I'm helping to make the world better place and I'm coming through!'. That gives me a reason to get up everyday. You can do it and I will help you every step of the way! 100 kazillion hugs for being such a good person!
Thank you JEG. Really needed all of the encouragement you have sent my way. You too are a caring person. Always wanting to help others. I have been sad all day and anxious. . I want to win this battle so I can put my energies into helping others. I am in therapy and hoping that will help. I love my counselor. Thank you for spurring me on. Needed that today. May you also know how special you are and sending encouragement your way:We Can Do This!!!!!
Thank you JEG. That’s what we need: to Be more positive!!!!!!
Positive words cancel out the negative.
JEG, that was a big step forward that you took in being so open and honest with us.
Now it makes sense in that Moriah was that Angel 
I'm so glad you are a part of
our virtual family. Never fear that any one of us could ever think less of you.
Actually, it makes me care about you even more. x
We can't hold onto bitterness or the past. When we do, we don't heal. Moriah set
you on the right path, don't allow negative thoughts to ruin what she gave you.
It was truly a gift from her heart. You were blessed my friend.
You are an amazing man who has so much love to give. Allow us to love back and
to support and comfort you. Thank you for sharing a difficult part of your life. x
Keep fighting and keep sharing. I'm a fellow bottler up of feelings. Find it hard to share sometimes as I don't want to feel like a burden on anyone or bring anyone else down. Hugs sent your way.
Thank you. Drop me a line whenever you want on my pm. Okay?
Thanks for opening up my brother Jeg. That's an amazing story. Think less of you? That's silliness. I actually think more if you.
Jeg,
Thank you for sharing.
It brings to mind how there is always hope.
I can’t imagine how you felt when your room mate, asked you to leave and you were on the streets..I’m sorry for your struggles at that time..that must have been beyond tough for you...
So glad you met Moriah, to read about her and the support she gave to you, helps give faith in human nature...
You have done so well Jeg,
Every good wish to you.
🌈🌺🌸🌺🌸 xxx
I thank you for your support O40. Right now, I can use it. But, I'm here for you too. Okay? 250 kazillion hugs for being such a good person.
Thank you Jeg,
You are very kind and caring...
I’m sorry for your struggles.
Whatever is happening right now, will turn out ok I’m sure.
Remember what you have been through, we can get through so many things even when we think we won’t..
You are a really good soul.
Sending vibes of peace your way 🌺🌺🌺
Luv, you O40. Maybe I'll ell it to you tomorrow. I need sleep right now. I'm gonna wrap your vibes of peace around me and go to bed. 'Night, my loving, sweet friend!
You’ve dealt with some life changing events that are traumatic. Just know that I read your post on here, I don’t know you but I’m glad you shared your story. You are a good person. Thanks for sharing.
Thanks for replying. You are obviously s good person too. Pm me if you wanna talk...
Oh, John, JEG, just 1 more reason we all love you. We want to be the ones who invite you to stay, not the selfish one who didn't. Your loving, giving spirit shines through these stories of losses of yours. God bless Moriah and now you for being there for those who need someone to do just that. You give a priceless gift to the hurting and friendship to those who want it...you are to each what each desires...perfection. Don't say you aren't perfect because many times you are! Perfection is being all you can be...giving all you have! Perfection is JEG325 time and time again. But remember, it's ok not to be perfect, and you are always perfect to me. Hugs, Love, Kisses, and Blessings to you.
Hi JEG, Thank you so much for sharing this. You are a truly courageous man. I only know you from your writing on a webpage, but you strike me as not only brave, but also a very warm, passionate, and genuinely caring person. Good things happen when we allow ourselves to become vulnerable with safe people, and I'm so glad you have opened up and shared your story. Sending you hugs
I can use them. Though something extraordinarily good happened, it is keeping me awake. I need sleep more than some people. It keeps my stress level down and eases my medical problems. But, as you are one of the classiest people on here, I will always treasure those words from you. 500 kazillion loving hugs for you, my friend!
Hi Jeg, why on earth do you think anybody on here would look at you differently because you currently need some support. We are not shallow people because most of us have been in need of help ourselves. Help is nothing to be ashamed of, it should be celebrated. I often think about those poor souls who live in countries where they get no help, what on earth happens to them?
Jeg thank goodness your angel was there for you, also that you have managed to get somewhere to live where help is available.
Yes, yours is a sad story but you have not written the ending yet.
🤯🤯🤯
SIK, I luv you to death. Your right the final chapter hasn't been written yet! I believe God sent me here to help people and help them I will! I laways smile when I see your response because I view you as one of my best friends. 500 kazillion hugs for being there all the time for me!!!
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