Jerked Around.

[HekatHushla]

I'm feeling very jerked around by my job right now. Jerked around and defeated.

I was released from a mental health facility about two weeks ago and immediately let my manager know that I cannot do phones anymore. I can do online chats and emails, but the phones cause me to have panic attacks. She said I'd need a doctors note. I take an extra week off to make sure I have the note and the accommodation is in place before I go back to work.

I give my hr department the note. It's not good enough even for a temporary request. I have to fill out some kind of form as does my doctor. Fine. I get that filled out and submitted but its going to take about a week to be put in place. While I am stuck taking phone calls.

So I wake up vomitting. I cry in between calls. I'm extra irritable. I cant sleep. I would rather call in and be put on a final than continue to do the things that put me in this position in the first place. But I need the money.

I want to scream. I want to just quit and stop fighting them. Just work super hard to get a new job. I am working on getting a new job now anyways. I'm so tired of fighting for my mental health.

Convince me to keep fighting.

[Dakota11]

You are a very strong person and you'll fight through this. I haven't had a job for 2 years because of my anxiety and depression. I quit and am terrified of working again. I feel like I gave up and I beat myself up about it every day. Don't quit! Keep going and be proud of yourself!

[HekatHushla in reply to Dakota11]

I just got an answer back from them saying I submitted the wrong form. I double checked because I can make mistakes sometimes. This time I didn't. I submitted the form she gave me, so I called her out on it.

Her response was "oh sorry, that's the old form. You may need to fill out the new one. We'll review it and let you know."

This is so frustrating. I have done everything asked of me. I've been aggressive about filling out the forms and getting them back in time. This could not be less my fault, but I'm still the one who's suffering for it.

This is so unbelievably unfair to me.

[Dakota11 in reply to HekatHushla]

Well it defiantly sounds like you are doing all you can right now considering your job. It does sound very unfair and that would make anyone feel depressed. Be proud of yourself for sticking with it. Hopefully they get back to you soon and get it all resolved. I am here if you want to chat anytime!!

[HekatHushla in reply to Dakota11]

Thank you so much friendo.

[Campinggirl]

You are a wonderful advocate for yourself! Keep fighting! I understand the phone calls anxiety. I have had that my whole life. My stomach would hurt and I’d get so anxious before calling people. I would sit in the parking lot before starting my shift and I’d cry too. I know it’s difficult but take a deep breath, puff your chest out, and say “I got this, and it’s not going to be like this forever.” I’m sending you positive vibes.