Pain

[Tamka39]

how bad things got for u? Until u seen changes? What did u have to do? Because I need to hear someone story because am giving up on everything right now because I have tried everything and am tried of struggling another day just for something new physical or mentally to happen am exhausted now and very frustrated don’t know how long I can go on like this 😩

[kenster1]

he im sorry that you feel this way.its hard to tell it depends on the individual and the support they get in trying to get better.a positive change could be something like going to the shop taking the dog a walk that bit further even travelling on your own.it really does just depend on your current situation.a little story from here I hope it will give you hope.in 2009 I was staying at home with my parents caring for my mum I had a long distance relationship I thought was going well.my dad and me didn't see eye to eye for a long time in the first place.my mum became ill really quick with sepsis and she died within 2 weeks of her diagnosis the next week my girlfriend ended our relationship and my dad ended up making me homeless soon after I struggled sleeping in a wooded area near my home in the winter months sofa surfing and occasionally back at my dads house.months later I met my current partner and I spent time in London living but ended up in Scotland again and we rented property but now have our own home and two wonderful kids.life is still a struggle with some things none of us will ever have a perfect life but its better than 2009/2010.hang on in there my friend never give up hope.

[aaronm]

Tamka, for about 7 years I was doing so well. I was on a very low dose of medicine and then in February 2018 I had a brain bleed. Freak incident and they don't know what caused it. Since then I've been an emotional wreck. Anxiety and depression got worse times ten. My psychiatrist keeps increasing doses and changing medications. I cry every day till I can't take the sheer sadness anymore and all I have left is hope...HOPE!!! There's that word that I hang onto. I've never lost it...even though sometimes its the only thing left.

[Timmypliskin in reply to aaronm]

Please try to hang in there..

I know it's hard, trust me..

[Tamka39 in reply to Timmypliskin]

Am trying

[Tamka39 in reply to aaronm]

Sorry to hear that, hope things get better for u i been sober for 2 weeks and I tried Prozac and it made me go through a lot of side effects and I had to stop it Sunday and my iron is low so I started back taking my iron pills a couple of days ago

[b1b1b1 in reply to Tamka39]

Being sober for 2 weeks is a huge accomplishment. It may be normal to feel depressed and generally terrible after you stop drinking. Your brain has to adjust to not having alcohol as a crutch. I also had a very bad reaction to Prozac. It made me feel hyper; I was unable to stop pacing and was very agitated. I then switched to Paxil, which has a calming effect and things improved.

[Tamka39 in reply to b1b1b1]

I was struck on my couch for 5 days and didn’t leave my house. It was scary thought I was dying and I wasn’t eating or sleeping it was all bad depression is no joke and I know that I self medicate for years off of alcohol and when I stop my brain went haywire it was to much to my body and I started My iron pills a couple ago I was crying and was giving up

[b1b1b1 in reply to Tamka39]

Try to eat as well as you can and do whatever you can to get some sleep. Lack of sleep can also make you feel terrible. Can you get any kind of exercise? If possible, try to do some simple exercises in your house. Start off slowly, though. Also, try to get some daylight/sunlight. Lack of light can cause depression. Sitting or standing on your front step for ten minutes may help.

[Tamka39 in reply to b1b1b1]

Ok I will try because today I thought I couldn’t never get off this couch

[Hidden in reply to b1b1b1]

Prozac made me too hyper and jumpy, too. But the amazing thing, Tamka, is that there are so many different kinds of medications that work in different ways or have different side effects. You and your psychiatrist will certainly find something that helps. I know it takes time. Most of the medications need to be taken for at least two weeks for you to feel any affect at all. Be very kind to yourself as you wait.

[Tamka39 in reply to Hidden]

Do u take medication for anxiety and depression? Am praying my psychiatrist find the right carbonation soon because right now the brain fog and off balance is to much

[Hidden in reply to Tamka39]

Brain fog. I remember how weird that can be. I'm on medication for my depression. I started in college and I think it only took two tries to find something that helped. And it helped enough that I was able to get off of them after a year or so. I think you will be feeling better soon, Tamka.

If you are the praying type, it is interesting to read the Psalms and see how many descriptions of depression are there. It was helpful for me to read poetic descriptions of how I felt - feeling that are so common to humans that they were written about thousands of years ago.

[Tamka39 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you