I just want to say i hate u anxiety, u made someone i love, hate me 😭

[Against_the_current]

I will change, i promise.

Thank u family for teaching me this unhealthy behaviour and trauma. Nobody can love me with this mental illness. Damn family for making me a living human that needs love but not teaching me how to behave. My dad escaped with another woman. It traumatized me. But now i understand not everyone is my dad and i will work on it and change. I just did a mistake. BUT I DON'T WANT THE FEAR OF SOMETHING HAPPENING TO PROVOKE IT HAPPENING. THIS WOULD BE TOO MUCH.

I will now have a rest away from everything so my mental health gets better so i stop pushing away.

How do we traumatized people keep relationships? Without jinxing everything

[Against_the_current]

Thank you

[Against_the_current]

Thanks, the "You did it to yourself" is stuck in my head, feeling like a monster

[Against_the_current]

I don't do it intentionally, this is just how im proggrammed by my parents

[Against_the_current]

Yeah, unfortunately

[AnxiousSilver]

I broke down with bad anxiety 20 years ago. and had my share of ups and downs ever since dealing with it.

I have lost so many friends and family members, because they looked upon me as "broken", and that's fine, They have shown me their true colors, and I have let them go live their life, because I want to be around people WHO ACCEPT ME, so I can live my life.

What I can say to you Real_Me. Find people (this place is a good start) to accept you for you being you, and grow with them.

[Against_the_current in reply to AnxiousSilver]

Thanks. That's the right thing but it's so hard to find someone who accept it all

[AnxiousSilver in reply to Against_the_current]

You don't need somebody to accept it all.

You need somebody to accept "you".

[Survivor1687 in reply to AnxiousSilver]

I admire your strength and wise words you share here Silver 💜

[AnxiousSilver in reply to Survivor1687]

& I admire what you have shared up to this point.

Even if it's a thread, with a few words.

Sometimes I pause.. drink from my bottle of water and just reflect and think for a bit.

[Survivor1687]

((hugs)) 💜