actually my life was great growing up.
but then these last few years everythings started to go downhill fast.
i could figure out alot of things to cause me anxiesty, but its hard for me to say precisely whats wrong with me.
if i had to give one core reason it would be how scared i become of change, and how much i fear death.
each day i feel like im fighting through the day,
i have kept myself from alot of people and lost alot of friends the last few years. but i still have the most important people left, my mom, my brother and this single friend i still talk with online sometimes, though i think it would be scary to meet him in real life again, considering how im not proud of myself anymore.
but for these people, i really want and need to keep on living, im just feeling so awefull every day and i dont want them to remember me as damaged when im gone one day.
im 20 years old, and also i apoligize for the poor english
but good day to you all, and also theres good times too, so i hope we all have more good times, and that it will all be a little brighter one day