I'm 37 years old and was just recently diagnosed with anxiety and depression at the beginning of March. Up until then I have always been a pretty carefree and happy person. I have no clue what has caused this, by all typical definitions I have a good life, good job, nice house, great kids, no financial worries. I have been on two different antidepressants and have been seeing a therapist, but for some reason I just cant seem to shake these feelings of hopelessness. I have had some improvement since this all started, I have been able to return to work. I think it's just that I have learned how to push through and dont really feel any better. I spend lots of my day trying to avoid people for fear that i might start crying at any minute. I feel my wife and growing apart as i am going through this and i feel like i am continuing failing my kids. I am a Christian and have tried laying these burdens on God but they just seem to keep sticking which is really testing my Faith which ends up making me feel worse. Really I'm just looking for some people to talk with that somewhat understand what I am going through, my friends and family really do mean well b it t they just dont get that it's not something I can just force away, if it was I would have already.