Regret

[anonymous0803]

I wish I was more outgoing. That I could walk up to a guy I like or find attractive and be like hey and they would just automatically be interested. That he would start out as a friend and get to know me and fall for me. I want the fairy tale, movie type romance. All of my girlfriends are having a blast in college, meeting guys, hooking up and what not. And I'm here, working and studying, not having much time at all. And yet I see couples all around me, and I just begin to wonder, what if I never get that? What if he never finds me? Or I found him and I blew it somehow. It sounds really stupid because I know I still have a lifetime ahead of me. But everyone says the teenage years are meant to be crazy and exciting. Am I not attractive enough? Not worthy enough? I'm the girl that people come to for advice yet I haven't even been kissed. Maybe moving to a new city and country makes me feel alone but I'm happy and I want my life to start

[Hidden]

I actually know how you feel. I felt like i lost so many opportunities on being with the “right” girl because i was too scared. 😔

[fauxartist]

your right .... you do have a life time ahead of you.... get through school and don't worry about it now.... it's all going to happen in it's own time.... so hang in there.

[Hidden]

The hook up scene will only leave you in worse shape than you are now. Don’t buy into the lie. People wind up broken.

[Lizardlover2]

Hi, thank you for sharing. I seriously wish I was with you right now to give you a hug and let you know it will be okay. I felt exactly the same way you are feeling right now. I was the ugly duckling compared to my sister. She would get all the men, the hook ups, and the attention and I would stand in the background wondering what was wrong with me!!?? I went years trying to be someone I wasn’t just so I could get the attention. It actually ended up hurting me more then helping. It was finally when I turned 24 that I gave that all up. I started focusing on me. I finished college, I actually became friends with guys then trying to see them at potential lovers. I ended up having a blast! I went on mission trips, and mini vacations. I even went to the movie thearte by myself. I made my life begin by focusing on me! I ended up meeting my husband when I was 27 and I got married when I was 28. It’s been 5 years now since I got married and to be honest I wish I would have accomplished more in my single life. There is nothing wrong with you, and your time will come. It sounds like you are a very dedicated hardworking young woman. Please continue this way. Your time will come and your life will begin before you know it.

[anonymous0803 in reply to Lizardlover2]

Thank you! I was literally having a really bad day and that made me smile. I'm in college right now but it's so different and I'm still trying to get the hang of it all