Bad Day

[courage_50]

Have a really bad day, angry, crying, wanting to just run away. Not sure what to do. Overwhelmed with emotions makes it hard to use my coping skills. Really struggling but don’t want to reach out to my husband like I usually do. Wanting to use bad behaviors. Just need to vent. Anyone out there that can understand what I’m going through???? 😢

[fauxartist]

I'm sorry your going through that... and boy howdy your not alone there with this.... it seems this site has exploded with members going through similar emotional roller coaster ups but mostly downs.... keep sharing, writing is cathartic... and getting it out is healing, every little bit helps us..... glad your sharing.

[courage_50 in reply to fauxartist]

Thank you for replying, I’ve been in recovery for 3 years now so I know what works, it’s still hard to reach out & still hard to ask for help.

[fauxartist in reply to courage_50]

do you mean you have been in AA recovery?

[courage_50 in reply to fauxartist]

No, sorry for the confusion. I overdosed 3 years ago in August. I was abusing medication and cutting. I haven’t done either for 3 years now.

[fauxartist in reply to courage_50]

congratulations on that.... wow....that is very great progress... still a day at a time, but always celebrate our victory's.... I'm very glad for you , and thank you for being an inspiration to those struggling with self harm and self medicating....

[courage_50 in reply to fauxartist]

Thank you! It definitely hasn’t been easy! I work at it every single day but I’m proud of myself! It’s the first time in my life that I’ve been able to say that! We are all an inspiration, our battles are an amazing journey that I think others should hear about. I draw inspiration & courage from hearing other people’s stories and we never stop learning & growing. I try to appreciate each & every day. Those rough days I just went through?! They taught me how far I’ve come but that I still have things to learn. I’m learning how to reach out to people, like I did on here. I’m so glad I found this app. There’s positivity here, but I found out that even when I’m struggling I can still reach out to someone & try to help them. Anyway! Sorry for the long reply 😆😆😆Have a great weekend!

[fauxartist in reply to courage_50]

I agree... there are a group of support folks here I've never seen anywhere... and they are compassionate and sincere.... we do have good and bad days and by sharing both.... not just the bad... that is the goal... it does give me hope too.

[Hidden]

Oh courage_50 I SO know how you feel. I'm having kind of a bad day as well, not as bad as some days but pretty bad. I'm waiting to go to work later today and cannot find anything to do around the house until I leave. Then I ruminate and get stuck in bad thoughts. Reaching out to my husband and brother, but they can only hear the same things so much. I do understand and hope you can find some peace.

[courage_50 in reply to Hidden]

Right?! I worry about my husband getting tired of listening to me which is silly, he’s been my rock for over 11 yrs now! I stay at home all the time & being cooped up gets old quick! I also have fibromyalgia, which causes a lot of physical pain. Such a vicious cycle 😢Thank you for replying & understanding! That alone means so so much!!! ❤️

[Hidden in reply to courage_50]

It is a blessing to have such a wonderful husband.