Bad day

[Bazmack]

Good morning, I am having a very bad day. Hubby has been up all night with stomach problems and is now having what we call a bad day. He is very drowsy and sleeping all the time. We are waiting for hospital tests to sort him out but dealing with it the past two years has taken its toll on me. I am sitting here crying my eyes out, family just brush it off but nobody has seen him on a really bad day. I was offered counselling as I was diagnosed with a malignant tumour almost three years ago and had op to remove it. I had major problems with the counsellor and ended up not attending. My McMillan nurse took my case forward and I received an apology for the way I was treated. I have not returned to counselling and am just hiding my feelings from everybody. On days like today I feel so alone. Is there anybody out there who can chat with me?

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Hi Bazmack

I'm sorry you are having such a bad day.

Do you think you would consider going to see a councillor again?

You are always free to talk to us on here and we will do our best to help.

[Bazmack in reply to Hidden]

jseex, thank you for replying. I don’t feel I can face counselling again. I spend most of my time looking after hubby and don’t want him worrying about me. I would just like someone who understands how I feel to chat to. Depression is so bad, I have tried drugs but they make me ill. Hubby has been asleep for hours, I managed to get him showered but it was hard work. I needed to wash all his bedding but feel so down at the moment.

[Hidden in reply to Bazmack]

How long have you tried medication for? I know myself it takes about 6 weeks to not feel ill anymore, And that can be frustrating because by the time you get use to it, it might not work then you have to try again.

Well maybe for now this site is a good solution. You can talk to people that have somewhat of an understanding and can talk to you. And maybe in the future you could try a councillor again.

I’m sorry your husband isn’t well, and it sounds like you have a lot of it fall on you. But then again what wouldn’t we do for the ones we love.

You are doing an incredible job!

Take care of yourself.

And if you need to talk just keep posting 😊

[Bazmack in reply to Hidden]

I have tried medication on and off for years, Prozac was the first and I have lost track of the others. I cannot afford not to be alert at all times. It means a lot to me that you took time to answer. Thank you.

[Hidden]

Yeah medication changes can happen a lot, I know I’ve lost count

And that’s fair enough.

Well I hope you can get something positive out of this site and that helps even if it’s the smallest amount.

[Bazmack in reply to Hidden]

Thank you.

[Katlynn]

I am sorry you are having a bad day. Hope you can get the help you need. It's horrible to be mistreated by someone who is supposed to help. At least you got an apology, but I understand why you are shy about going back. You have your hand full taking care of husband, but you need to take care of yourself too. Please reach out anytime. Sending 💘

[Bazmack]

Thank you Katelyn, hubby still asleep, hopefully he will be a bit better later. Need to wake him for afternoon tablets soon.