Where to start..

[TrappedNMyMind]

Im new to this. I dont like like talking to people about myself and my conditions. Most people sont understand or think its just all in my head.. i dont know what to do. I wake up depressed every day and even with medications i still go thru the same thoughts every day.

[ImNotCrazyJustSad]

My twin sister doesn't understand and she's been by my side for years. I couldn't talk to my family because they don't understand. I've been in and out of depression for years. I don't like getting up in the morning. Humanity is a disgrace. I don't like working at the hospital anymore. I don't really look at myself in the mirror. Haven't for years. I reached out to this group only yesterday and I've heard people's stories that can relate to my own. I feel better. Talking helps so you don't have to feel stuck inside your head.

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I feel your pain. There were times when I really didn't look in the mirror.

Just know that there is light and it is within reach. It takes time.

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Welcome aboard, TrappedNMyMind,

A lot of us are going through or have gone through some of the same things. You will find that this is a very supportive community.

[lovetodance2018]

I am so sorry you are struggling. I totally understand how hard it is to control our thoughts. I struggled with depression for over 20 years. I have been on medication. Medication helps with the chemical imbalance but it takes the right type and dose to feel better. Have you been on medication long? Maybe you can discuss with your doctor if he/she thinks you are on the right type of does. However, medication alone does not help with the healing process. You also will need counseling. The right counselor will help you find the triggers for your depression. For me I had to learn to stay strong in myself, I would defeat myself with my thoughts, not thinking I am worthy or important. Over time I learned I am important, special and matter. It takes work but you can change your thought pattern. Here is a good article to help you learn to change your thoughts. bit.ly/2MdGi0p In the article it references the book "Battlefield of the Mind." I highly recommend you read it. It helped with my healing process. Our mind is a battlefield, but it doesn't have to stay that way. I will be praying for you. Please continue to post, you have people who care and want to see you feel well. Lots of Hugs!

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Are you able to focus your mind on a happy place or time? Do you like music? Feeding your brain with positive thoughts I find to be very helpful. it breeds more positive for us. I'm here for you wishing you peace of mind. Love, joy, light & hugs!!!