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[AZ1970]

Hello everyone! I returned home today from an 8 day stay at the hospital. I am glad I voluntarily went. I received a new diagnosis: bipolar 2. The doctor started me on lamictal, doubled my antidepressant and took me off of Vyvanse. Looking back, I think I had been in a hypo-manic state since my last hospitalization 3 months ago. PTSD continues to be present as well.

I learned some new things while I was there. I hope I can remember them and implement them. And I really hope the medication continues to improve my quality of life. I do feel better.

For those of you struggling, don’t give up. Keep advocating for yourself. Don’t believe the depression and the hopelessness. Reach out. We may feel weak, but together we are here to boost each other up.

[Malumaf]

I’m really proud of you, that takes a lot of strength

[AZ1970 in reply to Malumaf]

Thank you Malumaf. I keep hearing how good it is that I went as soon as the suicidal thoughts started. I was worried I was jumping the gun. I did not want to see what would happen next if I let things go any further.

[Hidden]

Write down the things you learned that you want to remember. I keep a note pad on me for just this purpose. Your positivity is contagious.

[AZ1970 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Snoogans . I kept a journal throughout my stay. I plan on writing things on notecards attached to a ring. I will review them when I need encouragement or direction. I saw a new NP today as a follow up. She was impressed with how well I am doing. I like her a lot.

[Hidden in reply to AZ1970]

I might steal your idea about the index cards. I never thought to do that. She should be impressed. You are doing great.

[Hidden]

How have you been doing since you returned home? The adjustment was hardest for me last time. Hoping everything was smoothe and the medication change has proven beneficial, though I know it's probably still too soon too see full effects.

[AZ1970 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for asking. I actually feel great. I’m amazed. I want to be social. I feel joy. I can’t remember feeling this way in a very long time.

[Hidden in reply to AZ1970]

Wow this is wonderful! Is it a new sense of meaning or peace? A new medication?

[AZ1970 in reply to Hidden]

Lynnalice, the Dr d/c’d vyvanse and started lamictal. I think the increase in vyvanse from the hospitalization three months ago created hypomania. So now I am diagnosed with bipolar 2. I cannot believe the difference.

[Hidden]

That's fantastic! I'm elated to hear things have been working so well for you 😃. Gives me more hope for the future (for all of us). Hoping (and sure you will) you have a great weekend!