Very suicidal

[Givingup]

I'm dealing with borderline personality disorder, severe depression and high anxiety. No one at all understands even a fraction of what I'm going through. My married children have basically banned me from their lives and so has the rest of my family. They don't take responsibility for hurting me and provoking me. I want to die. I took many sleeping pills two days ago and nothing happened I just slept for a day. This isn't the first time I took pills. I can usually distract myself with a walk or t.v or a movie. Can't concentrate on anything now. The lack of support is the worst.

[Krazie]

I am sad to hear of your troubles. I, too, am having problems with adult children. It is extremely hard to deal with. You would think that once they are grown, they would have more understanding, but it doesn't seem to work out that way, does it?

Once depression settles in, we usually need to seek the care of a doctor. I have recurrent severe depression, too. Because of family issues, anxiety has returned. I can relate to how you must be feeling. However, suicide is never the answer. You might not think so now, but you would leave behind a lot of regret, guilt, and sorrow. I am sure your children love you, and care about you. When we are in the grip of depression it is hard, maybe even impossible, to see that anyone cares. Or even notices what we feel. Depression is a thief. It robs us of our very life, if we let it. Depression lies to us, making us feel worthless and unable to cope. Depression does not last forever.

I saw a poster just now that read something like this: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Please do not do anything rash. You sound as if you need more immediate help than can be given on this website. Please consider picking up the phone and calling a crisis hotline. Or maybe going to the ER, and telling them how you feel.

Let us know how you are doing. Please keep in touch.

[Sandyxoxx]

Don't give up !!! I tell you something I heard over n over

It will get better ! Yeah right !! But it does trust me !!

[Sandyxoxx in reply to Sandyxoxx]

Get help ,talk about it ok

[MariaLove123]

Omg I’m so sorry. If you’re seriously considering suicide, you have to call the hotline. I actually wound up talking to the guy on the phone for hours and even started seeing him as my therapist. You are in severe trouble right now and it’s great you are sharing about it. But you should call your doctor. People who abandon us don’t understand mental illness. I’ve lost so many friends and some family members because they were selfish. It really pisses me off when people leave. Do they think we like this life? Even after my suicide attempt two years ago, the family members who gave up on me STILL didn’t reach out. I’m at the point now where I’ve let them go. I’m putting any effort I have into the ones who are there for me. Even if it’s just my parents.

Don’t give up. You are having a rough time. It sucks! But you never know what tomorrow will bring. And the support on here is tremendous. Everyone relates and understands. Feel free to message me anytime if you want to talk. It was very big of you to let us know what’s going on. Sending you a ton of hugs 🤗❤️

[bridder01]

Suicide is never the answer! Right now, just surround yourself with people who really care about you and that you can lean on when things get tough. We're all here to listen!

Your friend,

Brian

[HisChild4ever]

I am very sorry! Depression distorts how we see things and robs us of joy. It's very hard to suffer from an illness! But suicide is not a solution. The God of the universe put you here on Earth and He created you with lots of value and made you unique and special. You matter a lot and your suffering matters. Unfortunately, other people do not have the ability to be there for us 100% and 100% of the time. Each one of us has to overcome obstacles and we can always ask God to help us. God is everywhere. God made you. God did not make a mistake when He created you! May He give you strength and His help daily! You are someone who is very valuable.

[Givingup in reply to HisChild4ever]

I don't feel that way but thank you.

[Rachel2535]

Please don’t give up! I know it is hard. I went through 25 years of wanting to end my life. I felt like it would never be lifted, this feeling that is. But I can tell you it has for almost 10 years now I have been depression free! So I know you can find freedom! Are you seeing a counselor? There are a lot of pastors, groups, mentors and counselors out there that can help you through some of the feelings and thoughts you have. For so many years I spoke so many lies about myself that was embedded into my brain it took some practice and help to speak truth and retrain my brain into seeing who I really am. I am praying you will see how love you are, not only by God but by us out here who have walked a similar road. -Rachel

[HisChild4ever]

Do not give up! You have our support and love.