I believe that I have borderline personality disorder. A doctor diagnosed it years ago but my mom spoke to him not me so I didn't want to accept it. Now I see most of the symptoms. I have two daughters, one hasn't been talking to me for four months because I slapped her husband for being fresh with me and not allowing me in the room when my daughter was giving birth. There were 6 women in there I felt so left out. And now my older daughter wrote me a letter saying that I am out of her life because I ask for too much emotionally. I raised them on my own and we've always been so close that everyone was envious. Now they are married and have babies so it's easier to kick me out of their lives.