Suicidal

[patricia_lafewa]

I need serious help, I don't want to tell me parent that I might need a psychologist, I can't do this anymore man. I'm so tired and drained. I want to die.. I need serious help.

[Hidden]

Hey there what's going on with you? I want you to know I care, can I help you in any way? Love, peace, light, joy & hugs for you!

[Hidden]

If you need help you definitely have to get it. I am a parent and would rather have my child ask me for help than lose my child.

You are not alone.

There are also some great suicide prevention numbers you can call immediately.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

800 273 TALK is the national hotline.

I think you can also text 741741.

[Hidden]

Come on..talk to us, please. Love, peace, light, joy & hugs for you!

[melantha]

I know... it is so, so hard sometimes. Admitting needing help really is one of the hardest parts of this all. I did not start seeing a therapist until just this year, even though I have suffered with bad depression and anxiety for years. It was just too hard to ask for help. It wasn’t until my anxiety got bad enough that it finally pushed me to make an appointment. The anxiety is easier to talk about, so that at least seemed manageable to talk with a therapist about. Baby steps I guess. I still need to get into talking about depression with her, but every time I try I just can’t... it’s just so hard and shameful to discuss. Yesterday when I left therapy, I left her a note I had written, finally saying all the stuff about depression and how I feel that I just can’t say out loud. I’m afraid to go back now. It won’t be easy, but I know I have to. Perhaps you can write a note to your parents explaining how you feel? You can say as much or as little as you’d like and also explain how hard it is for you to share this with them, but you are trying. They will understand that. Trying is all we can do. With a note, they will have time to process everything before talking to you, and you can make sure you get across everything without getting interrupted or getting too emotional. It’s still not easy, I know, but it’s a step.

[quitter333]

What would that accomplish exactly, and again - if you are 'suicidal' doesn't that mean you are kind of free?

So instead maybe this is the right time to do anything you want? After all, what is there to lose?

For example I always found romantic living in woods and surviving. Well, do it. There are enough materials about it, and maybe you find waking up in cold mornings and enjoying first sunrays life-changing.

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or maybe you want to start business? You know how people always find excuses - oh, I got family, oh I dont have time .. if you are free - then just do it. After all you now won't shy from approaching people and living on low food and so on .. because what is there to lose? Only gain. Maybe along the way you will bring giant profits and maybe will again change your life.

[Crazyme in reply to quitter333]

Well said

[Iloveart7]

Maybe if u are in school you could try talking to a school counselor and they might have some suggestions and help you tell your parents you really do need help. I know it's hard to get help but you DESERVE you get yourself some help! I'm here if you need to talk

[ItsOnlyMe_]

Hello!! Everything will be okay! I know its hard to tell your parents, but just make that push. Just force yourself to talk to them, through the pain. This push is what will make you better. This is how you will start your journey. Please, please take some time. Don't rush. Just think, and open up to someone. You have to. There is a better world out there. You just have to see it. There are people around you, we are also here for you. There are people who will help you and guide you every step of the way. You are NOT alone. Please do talk to someone you trust. This is the first step, and you CAN do it. Sending lots and lots of love and strength your way.

[patricia_lafewa]

Non of this going to help. These are words. Words I've heard before. All of you just want it/me to be better, but is being better good enough?

And "eveything will be okay" doesn't mean it won't happen again.

[No1wthayla in reply to patricia_lafewa]

You will need to put in a ton of effort to dig out of this problem. It is not easy. Words don't make it easier. Some times you feel like the words are bouncing off of you, not meaning anything. But you posting here is a sign that you want help. You are reaching out. Please don't give up now.

My daughter was suicidal earlier this year. I had no idea until the cops knocked on my door one night. They said she had been posting on social media and her friends called in about her. She spent 5 days in the hospital and after a while, she realized she needed the help. It had come at the right time.

[Hidden in reply to patricia_lafewa]

I think it is important for you to understand, almost everyone here has been where you are...and some have even attempted suicide.

I have been where you are. I have been admitted to the ER 3 times in the past few years after having a nervous breakdown. I lost it. I fell apart. Uncontrollable crying and shaking. I couldn't eat or sleep and hit rock bottom.

Taking my own life was the decision I finally reached. I have reached that point many times in my life.

I have learned that sometimes "giving up" calms me down. I feel relief. Why not? I have given up. No more worries or stress.

But I get through it. I wake up and smile again. I have bad days. And I have good days. We all do. We seem to forget the good days when we have the bad days.

I don't know what type of relationship you have with your parent(s), but I can't imagine any pain greater than losing my child. I say child but he's 27 now. It makes no difference. I am here for him all day every day.

Give your parent(s) a chance. Give life a chance. Give yourself a chance.

I am 48 and found this site a few weeks ago. I started therapy the same week. I have my first group therapy this Thursday.

Was it a miracle? No. Am I trying? Yes I am.

Don't give up without trying.

You are not alone. Far from it.

[melantha in reply to patricia_lafewa]

You are right. These are just words, and sometimes people’s attempts at giving advice can be nothing but frustrating. You often already know everything we are saying, but knowing is not the same as feeling. You may KNOW you shouldn’t feel a certain way, but that doesn’t change the fact that you do. Our advice doesn’t change the fact that you feel terrible right now. Maybe that’s not what you need at the moment, but know that we are here for you.

[fauxartist]

believe me honey....your parents would rather you come to them for help than the alternative of loosing you.

[ananxiousgirl]

This sounds hard. But just know that you are loved and there is light. It will get better I promise. I've been there too, but it's definitely the best thing you can do to ask for help.

Please stay with us. We care about you.

[Crazyme]

Whatever you do dont hurt yourself! Talk to your parents...im a father and would feel horrible if my children didnt want to come to me

[Jeff1943]

Patricia, your parents brought you into this world, they are the guardians of your welfare, I want you to speak to them and explain everything, you will be surprised by their helpful reaction.

If you feel like serious self harm you must go immediately to your nearest A&E or ER and tell them exactly what you have in mind. They will givr you the help and attention that has been lacking in your life.

Patricia, you are not going to feel like this for the rest of your life. You will put the bad feelings behind you and regain your quiet mind. Believe me. Until then you must ride the tiger as we all have to do ffrom time to time.

Speak to your parents right away. See your doctor as soon as possible. Place the problem in their hands. All things will be well in the end and if they aren't then it isn't the end yet.

[MT2018]

Hey-glad you joined and are here. I see lots of people, on both posts of yours, that are ready to love and support you. You have to keep talking to us! What is it that you can't 'do' anymore? Everyone has max limits and breaking points. What is breaking you? Speaking for myself, I'm totally maxxed right now, with holidays coming and memories flooding, with college finals due next week, a house, family, work.....Sometimes my max is a relationship that I am just 'so done with'. Sometimes it's money stressors. So, what's happening that is making you feel like you can't do it anymore? Someone gave you a hotline number. Call-day or night, as often as you want to--cause we aren't here 24/7 but they are.