Desperation.

[NoirLioness]

Hi everyone, I need your help. I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it before but I struggle with my own mortality. It’s become so much so that even with new medications and therapy I’m struggling. It’s a daily battle. If any of you can give me some advice I would really appreciate it. Does anyone else fear the same as I do?

[IheartDogs]

We hear you, yes... the daily struggle. It's a full time job. Have you tried exercise, going outside, CBT in therapy, practicing gratefulness, reading? There are many other options. You can stay strong! We know it gets tiring sometimes.

[NoirLioness in reply to IheartDogs]

Yeah I have been trying to do mindful therapy, going outside, writing how I'm feeling and I'm trying to find a hobby that can possibly help me with self esteem issues which might pertain to the feeling of my life being "over". Like "this is as good as it's going to get" which might contribute to panic. Thanks for your words of encouragement I appreciate it very much!

[IheartDogs in reply to NoirLioness]

You're doing so many good things for yourself. Be persistent and never give up 💜

[sunandbutterfly]

Hello. Yes, the idea that we are mortal and the idea of dying can be a frightening one. I know that my faith helps with that one. In Psalms, it talks about how even in the valley of the shadow of death that God will be there. I would encourage you to continue to take your medications, see the counselor, etc. Perhaps you can find some comfort in praying or exploring faith?

[NoirLioness in reply to sunandbutterfly]

Thank you so much for your kind words and reaching out to me. I will keep doing my due diligence and trusting the process.

[sunandbutterfly in reply to NoirLioness]

[GodspropLizzy]

There are as many things for people to fear as there have been words invented in as many concepts as possible. When i start fearing things like finance and living and health, i try to automatically trace it to the real sentiment and issue behind it. At least your fear is not something expendable, it is even expedient. Oprah says that whatever we fear is not the issue- "The thing you fear most has no power. Your fear of it is what has the power. Facing the truth really will set you free."

The whole of last week i had been wrestling and finally had to come to term with my fears and anxieties. And it felt so good! But this guy said, 'you don't just bath once and expect to be clean forever, or a few months.

i tried to look up the word comfortable in scripture and there was almost nothing. But there were tons for comfort. Perhaps you are being stirred up with these feelings for such a time as this!

P.S. You can be a martyr (i was never a very good one, becuase Christ and God already paid the price and carried the cross for me), or you can practice cognitive dissonance. Or the last alternative- what to do? You could just try living. And to be waiting for something, even attending to fear- you would have to know what you were waiting for.

[NoirLioness in reply to GodspropLizzy]

Thanks so much for your words of inspiration! I appreciate them and you!

[GodspropLizzy]

Thank you! May i be so bold as to ask you to read this scriptures? Forgive me for my impertinence. Psalms 121. John 9, John 8, John 4, Psalms 139, James 1: 17, Isaiah 53, Isaiah 61, Isaiah 43:1,2, John 3:16, Hebrews 11, Ezekiel 37, Jeremiah 1: 5, Psalms 20, Job 32:8, Matthew 27:11-65, Luke 23, Luke 24

And i know nobody really believes that scripture can be hilarious- but God has a real sense of humour. You will laugh as you read this. Go on, read it, i dare you! And i know you do not believe me so you might as well just read it to prove me wrong: Acts 12, Numbers 23, 24, 1 kings 18, 1 Samuel 18: 24.

I don't know........but hearing you today.... you sounded really light and happy, kinda carefree. Maybe God is already at work doing his work with us.

Sorry, i'm gonna prat on again. i never know where or when to stop, but i suppose madness 'must be forgiven' as Jane Austen would say 'there really is no cure.' this lady said every decision or path or type or quality of life has a burden. Every life decision has a cost and a price tag, whatever you choose. Then this guy talked about 'burdens being delightful' and scripture says, 'Christ's burden is light.' I hope you keep living a path that can keep making you this serene.

May God bless you, over and over.