New to This

[TravisF]

So I am new to this. I don’t know if I’m doing it right or if it will help but I was brought here from a hotline due to my extreme panic attacks and anxiety I’ve been dealing with for about a week or so now. It’s been so scary and I’ve felt so alone but I’ve kept an open mind. I feel like talking has helped the most but I still have these attacks and sometimes it’s worse than other times but it’s sometimes constant. I feel alone and so scared… but I’m trying.

[ZoeDex]

Hi Travis. I'm kind of in the same place, and I stumbled upon this site. I'm in a really black place mentally at the moment, and I can't sleep. I have also been having terrible anxiety for about a week, and had a few panic attacks. I also feel incredibly alone, and like the only person I have in the whole world is my daughter, who is only 13. I'm not sure that is enough.We can be alone together, and maybe we'll feel less alone.

[TravisF in reply to ZoeDex]

I would like to think it will get better. I know how hard it is so I’m sorry you are so hurting… I have been up all night scared to death and I know there has to be a way out but I’m not seeing it right now.

[ZoeDex in reply to TravisF]

I don't see the way out either. And I'm in so much pain. I don't know how to get through, and even if I do I don't know that what is on the other side is enough to make it worth wile.But the reading I've done tonight says that these feelings are temporary. I'm not so sure. But we have to try. So let's just try and get through tonight.

[TravisF in reply to ZoeDex]

Reading on here does make everything seem temporary so I’ll do like you and fight through the night.

[ZoeDex]

It's not easy. But maybe things will be a bit better tomorrow, for both of us. Try to get some sleep. Or if that not what you need please do something to distract yourself from your bad thoughts. I'm going to put on a movie that helps me sleep, and hopefully things will feel a little better in the morning. I hope you feel better in a few hours. Thank you for talking to me tonight. It was nice to have a connection with someone when I was at my darkest moment.

[TravisF in reply to ZoeDex]

you’ve helped me as well. Thank you. I might try to watch tv and maybe that will help me too. Have a good night!

[ZoeDex]

Hi Travis. I'm here and made it through the night. I hope you did too. My anxiety isn't really any better at all. It may be a bit worse actually, and with a whole lot of hatred and bitterness thrown in. I hope you are in a better place than last night, but even if you are not I wanted you to know that I care.

[TravisF in reply to ZoeDex]

I’m sorry you don’t feel better. I actually couldn’t sleep very well so I feel worse as well. But it’s ok. It has to be.

[Hidden]

Hi and welcome! I have very frequent panic attacks mostly during the day but I do wake up to instant panic attacks too. It’s really frightening when they come on so suddenly! Sometimes I can feel it coming on slowly and it’s then that I can do the slow deep breathing exercises and try to think of something that is calming like the ocean! -Shay

[TravisF in reply to Hidden]

That is comforting to know because it does feel like I’m the only one when they do happen. Thank you for sharing that with me!

[Hidden in reply to TravisF]

You’re welcome ☺️

[Hidden in reply to TravisF]

mine always seems to start with the chest burning but the panic attacks are probably brewing without me knowing even before the chest burning starts

[TravisF in reply to Hidden]

Mine wakes me up and stops me from going back to sleep. It hurts my chest so bad… I know how you feel…

[ZoeDex]

Hi. I don't know what to say, but I care. I'm sorry you had a bad night. Me too. I'm going to force myself to exercise and I think at least while I'm doing it I will feel a bit better. And I'm hoping that it carries over into the rest of the day, even for an hour would be so helpful. I'll keep checking here today. Travis I hope you feel better.

[TravisF in reply to ZoeDex]

I was doing well when I was extremely tired. But I actually tried to go to sleep and I did for a few hours but woke up in complete terror and I’m trying to calm myself down. But I think you are doing great by exercising! I really hope that helps!

[ZoeDex in reply to TravisF]

Hi. The exercise was distracting, but I actually had trouble keeping focus and actually started to panic several times during class. But what was so nice was that after class this couple came to me, sat down, and talked with me for about 30 min. Total strangers! And they were so nice. That helped so much, and I'm so grateful for that act of kindness, that probably seems very small to them but means so much to me.

Hang in there. Hopefully we will have better nights tonight.

[TravisF in reply to ZoeDex]

Well I am so glad to hear your story for today! Little things like that mean everything.

Today I backslid and had to get stronger medication from my doctor to calm me. Might’ve been the worse panic attacks I’ve had ever. But I’m hopefully with the medication and I have counseling scheduled so I’m sure that would help.

After a very long day, I feel peace right now. I feel so tired that Im ok.

[Wildflower13]

Please know you are not alone. I 100% know how scary, life altering, exhausting, debilitating, (the list goes on) anxiety can be. I too suffer from panic attacks, constant anxiety. Just for reference, I would say I have been in a state of constant anxiety for 3 years now, 90% of the time. It's no way to live. I am beyond terrified to take medication - I know how ridiculous that sounds. My health anxiety is through the roof out of control. My heart palpitations are what keeps anxiety constantly going for me. Yesterday I didn't have one palpitation and my day was pretty good! But today, it's back to the same ol story. I think I replied to your post earlier, sharing a little bit about that.

Yes, the feelings are temporary, but when it's a constant 'temporary' feeling, it's exhausting.

My faith in Christ has kept me going even through my toughest days and scariest heart palpitations. My job is extremely anxiety provoking for me and I have been steadily looking for other options since December. I'm just not in a position to be able to leave until I have something that pays equally as much lined up - and that is pretty hard to find right now. Each day is a struggle coming to work and having to lead all these meetings. It's horrible actually. Anyways, enough about me.

I just want you to know that I understand and you are not alone. This website definitely does help and shows us we are not alone. Please message me any time at all. I understand what you are dealing with and I hope today has been going a little easier for you! Talk soon!

[TravisF in reply to Wildflower13]

Thank you for sharing. The best thing is knowing people understand what’s happening to me. I’m not doing to good due to these panic attacks. Right before I went to bed I felt good cause I was so tired. A few hours later I’m waking up in a sweat and scared to death. I’m doing breathing exercises and everything but I’m scared.

[Wildflower13 in reply to TravisF]

Have you tried yoga? I’ve been doing it about 5 days a week for prob 4 months now. It really helps me a lot with relaxation. If you are interested, check out Boho Beautiful on YouTube

[TravisF in reply to Wildflower13]

Thank you for the suggestion! I’ll try it

[Hidden]

you're definitely not alone, i've been experiencing constant anxiety for the past 3 months. i know how scary it can be, but we just gotta keep pushing through it. it may seem like it will never get better but i promise it will. it just takes time

[TravisF in reply to Hidden]

I believe it deep down. While it’s happening it doesn’t seem true but I know it is. Thank you for sharing with me!