Self harm

[had_o]

I want to cut myself but I don’t even have the energy to...it’s at that point where I’m too numb to even move to do it. Idk how to explain that

Does anyone else ever want to cut but they just don’t even have the energy to, but they want “the fix”?

[David0987]

Had_o , I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I have depression but have only ever once felt like cutting. It was short lived. I doubt it would have been a good long term solution though. I think that's probably true for you. I don't want to lecture you or give a ton of advice. But what ways have you tried to explore your feelings of self harm? Therapy? Group or individual? Meds? Have you read up on it? I'm sure others here can offer up some good thoughts. Hang in there!

[had_o in reply to David0987]

I don’t really have any coping mechanisms outside of self garm

[NoirLioness]

I have felt the exact same as you recently. I wanted to cut so bad for the feeling...but I just can’t even bring myself to be bothered. Who wins? I am still not sure...

[had_o in reply to NoirLioness]

It’s a weird feeling

[NoirLioness in reply to had_o]

It’s almost like a jonesing feeling to me.

[had_o in reply to NoirLioness]

Yeah, I can agree with that

[Wowie132]

I have had these feelings on many occasions but I ask myself how it makes anything better and I can never think if a good reason. I have a close friend who deals with the same thing and she puts a rubber band on her wrist and whenever she has the urge to harm herself she snaps the rubber band on her wrist. It seems to help her as she has been clean from self harm for almost a year now! I wish you luck and hope everything gets better

[had_o in reply to Wowie132]

That’s a good thing! And thanks

[fauxartist in reply to had_o]

also ice cubes.....you can put food coloring in them if you want...some do , the idea is to take an ice cube and put it on my your skin where you would normally feel the urge to cut, and leave it on there till you feel the numbness and the urge leave.....there is also a phone app to help with the thoughts...I don't know what it is, another member a while back posted about it.

[had_o in reply to fauxartist]

Oh the ice cube idea is interesting. I might try that one

[fauxartist in reply to Wowie132]

I've heard that one too about the rubber band...very helpful for a lot of people....

[had_o in reply to fauxartist]

That one isn’t strong enough for me, if that makes sense...

[fauxartist]

the extreme cold does give a sense of release....

[Essentiallyfree]

I know this response is a little late, I'm new here! @had_o, I'm curious if cutting is something you're hoping and trying to overcome at this point? I do recommend some sort of system; whether that's a friend you can confide in and gain encouragement or a therapist/support group. Having healthy coping mechanisms is so important. I have struggled with cutting in the past so I understand all too well. I'm really sorry you're experiencing this. If you're looking for any resources, here is a great one to give some insight into overcoming self harm and ways to find support systems. You are so worthy of love. Believe that. bit.ly/2MvxmIp

[had_o in reply to Essentiallyfree]

Thank you! ❤️