Trigger warning: self harm

[daas]

Spent the last couple of hours driving and cutting. Started when I left my town and didn't stop bleeding until I arrived at the new town. Good thing they're not deep. Also seem to have left my PRN at home so can't even take something.

[Hidden]

It sounds like you need to go to the nearest hospital. Please take care.

[daas in reply to Hidden]

I should mention that I had a destination, was not just driving aimlessly. But did SH for most of the trip. Am at my destination now with something to focus on which should theoretically help for a while. Had one day between SHing events.

[Hidden in reply to daas]

How are you today?

[daas in reply to Hidden]

Feeling about the same, but haven't SHd today yet. That could be because I'm around people today and wearing new clothes that I don't want to mess up. Thanks for asking. Also I have work to do (did yesterday too, but there was that drive)....

[Hidden in reply to daas]

Well done for not SH today. Please take care.

[Shnookie]

please call 988 - the crisis hotline.

[daas in reply to Shnookie]

Texting them now

[Shnookie]

so happy to hear this. I’m here 4 U hugs 🥰 S

[daas in reply to Shnookie]

I spent almost an hour texting someone from the hotline. It was somewhat helpful. Thanks for the suggestion.

[Shnookie in reply to daas]

You are very welcome 🙏🏼. So happy it was somewhat helpful. Your life is precious. I’m here 4 U. Hugs 🥰 S

[NorwegianWood]

I also affirm that you are precious. If you could look back at you today from 20 years time, I'm sure that you (in the future) would confirm that you (today) are precious and deserve all the help that is available. Treat yourself tenderly as show yourself the value that you hold.

Continue to seek out help. Talking is valuable, especially with those who are good at showing further perspectives - psychologists and counselors.

[daas in reply to NorwegianWood]

Thank you. I do have an appointment set up with my therapist, but not until May. I haven't seen him for almost a year. Guess that's too long to go without an appointment.

[bethelbee in reply to daas]

Maybe before you can get in to see your therapist you could try Better Help or another one of the online therapy sites. I believe it only takes a short time(maybe 48 hours?) to be able to talk to someone. Might help in the interim.

[daas in reply to bethelbee]

Maybe. That's a good idea. I'll try to check it out. Thank you.

[bethelbee in reply to daas]

You're welcome! Hope things work out for you....

[NorwegianWood]

Yes, May is too far away. For emergencies hospitals are the best place to do.

Talk to a doctor to see what they can arrange for you.

If that is not possible is there a trusted elder in your life who has your best interest at heart?

[PourSomeSugarOnMe]

I’m glad you found texting the hotline a little helpful, and when you do go to your appointment in may mention you’d be better seeing them more often for support. I have self harmed for over 35 years and wish there was support years ago to save myself more distress and scars ect. Hope you’re ok

[daas]

I'm sure I can text them back again