A Life Of Stress..

[smilezz]

Hi.. I Don't Feel Okay .. I feel Hopeless .. I Have Stress All the time, It's From My childhood.. I used to be like this, scared of everything, and scared of trying anything new, or Talk To People Or do something in public.. I gave Up My Hobbies .. No Actually I've Never Give Myself A chance for Trying To Discover What I am Good at .. Always thinking it's useless and I'm not gonna be good at anything, and now It's hard To Be growing up like that without knowing who you are, and What do you want to do in this life.. It's hard to see a future for yourself when you're thinking such a harmful thoughts about yourself .. And No matter How I Tried To continue on Doing a certain activity, I Give Up In the end After a couple Of Days No matter How Easy Is Doing It or How Much Im exciting to do it , I just Stop Doing it and that makes life even painful cuz i feel my life is empty and im the one who is responsible for ,, and even in my vacations .. I don't do anything useful , one day i picked up some self help books and i started to read one of them ,, a Real Positive And Useful One .. And Guess What !! I just stopped reading it after a while of trying .. Yup that's how im living .. If anyone Have An Advice For how can i get out of this .. Please help. .. I'm not okay at all .

[smilezz]

And also I Have A lot of thing in my. Mind That I wish If I could Say,, But It's Not Coming out The Way I want it to.. Even if I explain my feelings words don't just make people. Feel. What I feel Or Know how much It's Hard for Me to deal with it.. Maybe I'm more weak than others.. Maybe The Things That Hurts Me Doesn't Hurt Them That's Why I Have To Be stronger Than What I am Now.. Am I right? Can u please tell me what do you think about this? Did anybody felt like this before?

[Marshall64]

I can relate to what you are saying, especially when it comes to self help books. I have a few but don't get very far into them.

Is there any activities that you can do that will get you out of your mind? For me it is playing guitar, hockey and exercise. I also go to peer led support groups. You could google them to see if there are any in your area. It helps me to get out of the house and out of my head.

[smilezz in reply to Marshall64]

Gitting out of my mind is the hardest part I think .. Cuz.. I know if I could do that I can feel a little bit of peace in my mind and my heart.

[Hidden]

Hello smiley!

I am no doctor, by a long shot, but it sounds a little like you are self-sabotaging. Reading isn’t something I do well with when depressed, I just can’t concentrate enough to do it. But the work at hand on yourself can begin at anytime you’re ready. I had a tough childhood also...I’m sorry you have been struggling. For me, the childhood demons are the hardest to get rid of and take a lot of work to get through, but it’s worth it! Don’t be so hard on yourself and start over tomorrow...you always have that option! Wishing you the best!!

[smilezz in reply to Hidden]

Can u please tell me how did You start to change.. I Tried To Change But It's All for me is About Positive thought and will power.. If I could know how to improve that I think it will kind of easier.. Thank you for replying to me.. Bless you.

[Hidden in reply to smilezz]

Sure! I will try! I had to make up my mind 1st that I wanted to get better. You’ll be wasting your time if not ready and willing. I then begin to remove negativity and worry from my mind consistently by replacing those thoughts with positive ones. In context, it’s very simple but oh so hard to do! You have to practice over and over until it feels more natural. If this is the only thing anyone hears...always look for the positive in every situation!! Be grateful for all things, big or small. Do dot dwell on negativity over and over again in your mind...it’s toxic! Begin completing tasks that need to be done right now and place the others on the back burner until you’re ready to tackle them. Take baby steps when moving forward when you need to. Do the things you do not want to do. Distract yourself when you can’t stop the negativity. You can do this!! Wishing you the best!!

[smilezz in reply to Hidden]

I appreciate your trying.. Thank u so much.. I'll try that for sure..

[ElJayBee]

Ugh. I'm so sorry. So many of the things you listed I can relate to. I've never known what I want to do when I "grow up" either and I'm in my 40s. I often have felt the way you described of not feeling good enough. It's such a terrible feel6. Especially when you can recognize that it's not a healthy one. I hope you have peace of mind soon.

[smilezz in reply to ElJayBee]

It's just if I know how can I start making improvement in my life without doubting my life and myself I can go forward.. Thanks.. You guys are such a bless.