Not in control of my own life.

[Brittnay12]

My life has always be controlled by my dad. I've never been able to make my own decisions without his okay. This is stopping me from living my life the way i want to live it and do things i want to do. I'm always worried about what others think or will say with what i do with my life.The decisions that i have made on my own i always feel like im disappointing my parents or i'm letting them down. My anxiety has always gotten in the way of my life by not letting me do what i want when i know i can because its my life and i can do whatever. I don't know how to get out of this funk. I am not a confrontational person at all and have a hard time communicating my thoughts. Im afraid ill never be in control of my own life and make my own decisions.I feel trapped in my own body and i can't get out.

[Hidden]

Maybe try writing your dad a letter. Im much better at putting my thoughts and feelings in writing and it gives him time to think about it before responding.

[jesca18 in reply to Hidden]

This is very good advice that you gave brittnay12! Writing letters is the only way I get through to my father.

[Agora1]

Hi Brittnay12, Some of your father's control may have to do with how old you are and

if you are living within your parent's home. Not that it makes it alright but just easier

for him to manipulate your life. To your dad, it's called his love for you.

Once you are an adult and on your own, it becomes important to make your own decisions in life because that is the way we learn, through our mistakes and experiences.

I agree with Hoski in that your dad needs to know your feelings on this matter.

It won't go away by itself. The worst thing that could happen is that you will lose control

of your life's decisions. It will always make you feel like you never really became that adult

that you were meant to be.

You can't worry about disappointing your parents or letting them down if you are

doing no wrong. Living your life according to your dreams is not asking for much.

I wish you well in getting this clarified soon. Time has a way of getting away from us.

Welcome to this support site. I'm glad you are here. xx

[jesca18]

I could have wrote this myself! This is my life! If you want to dm me please feel free!

[cschwemin]

I feel it would be very helpful for you to find a therapist you can relate to. It could be very freeing!

[Brittnay12 in reply to cschwemin]

To be honest I don't know where to even start to find a therapist, and I don't have money to pay out of pocket so I would need it to be covered by my insurance. I've been trying but have gotten no luck.