I don't know how many times I can ask for help and not get it and continue. I’m scared of ending up in a hospital. I know that that is where I probably need to be right now but my life would be over. I don't know how my dad would handle it. He has no idea I'm this bad off, but every time I try and talk about it he dismisses me with essentially a “toughen up” or something to that extent. My mom has somewhat of a clue but hasn't done anything.
Plus, I wouldn't know what to do if I lost my job. And I probably would if I was away.
I don't know what to do. I'm so scared and hurt. But I'm worried it's already too late I keep thinking about the best outcomes of my situation but even then I ask myself if it's worth it. Every day is torture and honest to god that is the truth. Crying in my room every night. Thinking of scary things. Panic attacks OCD flares. Physical pain.
I'm tired of fighting.
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Bookishbunny, You're tired dear because you are constantly fighting a battle within yourself. We cannot control what others say or do and to try is only defeating us and making us more intensely stressed.
I too have Fibromyalgia, it came after years of battling with Anxiety and Agoraphobia. My body never had a change to relax. It was always in a tense state of apprehension and fear.
So now, like you, I had to add one more issue to my mental status.
These issues are all stress related. Fibro doesn't cut your life short, is not catastrophic.
It's a wake up call for a change in your life style. Bring down the stress, accept what you cannot change and the tension goes down.
We have choices in life. We cannot allow others to put us down or make us be what they need and want.
Our life is in our control whether we believe that or not.
We have the power within us to change who we are but more so in how we react to
life around us.
Do what you need to do for yourself. It's a part of loving yourself and caring about you when you feel no one else does. We are here for you. Sending gentle hugs I care xx
I know I need to bring down my stress but don't know how. I have people around telling me that fibro isn't real and treat me like it's for attention. But the pain to which I was referring is my cysts caused by PCOS. Everyone just acts like I'm dramatic but it hurts constantly.
Let me assure you that you are not dramatic with regards to the cysts as well as Fibro.It's easy for others to say that when they do not suffer from these conditions. I'm so
Please start with a medical dr. And go from there..ask your mom to go with you...I'm sure she would. Theres so many of us that suffer..its worth the effort to seek medical help. I finally got a referral from my medical dr. to see a psychiatrist ..today actually..and she listened....and they know what drugs that could help. It's a good start...pls dont give up. I have bad anxiety every morning and depression hits in the afternoon..after a bit of hit and miss with drs. and medications..I feel some relief...you deserve that.
I feel you on so many levels with this. I'm currently taking care of my parents who are in both bad shape health wise, but they also can't/don't understand my anxiety, because they only understand physical pain.
I see in your Bio that you have GAD, and severe GAD is my primary issue. (followed by PAs)
I know how draining that is. Both mentally and physically, and I'm struggling with that myself ATM. (hence why I am here)
It's hard for me to suggest what you should do, because you know your situation better, and I get why you are stressed about it. (in some ways I'm going through similar issues)
If you ever want to message me, that's cool.
Agora1 (as usual) seems to have some solid advice too. I've only been here a short time, but she's been very helpful on some of the stuff that I've seen her post.
Finally, *just being real* I don't know much about Fibro, PCOS, ETC, but I definitely know the feelings GAD, stress, Depression, and am willing to listen.
Bookishbunny, I honestly haven’t had even been on this site in a long time because I have health anxiety and OCD and sometimes reading these can trigger me into my OCD so I stayed off and realized I have OCD regardless . However some thing sad to read this so I did and I’m sorry you’re going through so much and I realize people do not know what to say to us because they don’t know what we go through day today so they say things like what you’ve been told, if you set them down and tell them exactly what’s going on and what you’re feeling and if you told your job and you have FMLA , You will not lose your job your health is more important anyways and there’s so many jobs out there there will be another one but you need to be healthy and your family has to understand this also I pray you will get the help you need because deep down inside you know your worth it and without you here you won’t even realize that so we want you here, You will get through this I struggle every day, yet I make myself do things and try my best to get through and every day tell yourself you’re worth it I hope you keep in touch and I hope you keep pushing on , We are all here tuition. Sending many prayers and love your way
Hello, I felt sooo sad when I read your post. After reading all the replies I decided to give you my advice. I am a rather senior citizen but have experienced over 20 YRS of PTSD.Life has been hell, regards help all one gets is tablets....that didnt help. I started to pray and listen to God & beg for his help, the road has been hard but he has held my hand & got me through it.
When all else fails....we remember him....God Bless you....you are special. 🙏
Family seems to disregard our feelings and don't seem to care, I cry everyday so tired of being sick like this. I know what you're going through, stay with us and we are always here to listen and talk to each other
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