I Suck At Everything and Other Thoughts

[c_the_poet]

Lately, I've been having a hard time doing the basics. Falling asleep, doing chores, taking care of myself, focusing, doing homework. I am always on the brink of crying and I have no clue why. Being positive is hard and I am not patient with myself. I've been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and PTSD. Any advice to get through this?

[jessmn62312]

Hi, I also suffer from depression, anxiety, ptsd, panic attacks and social anxiety. I have since I was 15, I am now 33. I had therapy as a child but stopped going when I was around 20. I thought I had it under control. Recently a lot has happened in my life and it amplified everything, so much so, that I too have no desire to do anything. No motivation at all. I wake up everyday with no excitement at all for the day. My husband is the only reason I try. So I decided that going back to see a physiologist and a doctor will be my only hope. I have my first appointment on the 14th. I can keep you updated on what help I get. Maybe it will help you. I plan on trying a daily medication, the only thing I have ever taken was Xanax. I would take it when ever I had a panic attack. I had that for about 10 years but stopped taking it about a year ago. I thought I could find a way to naturally handle and maybe cure my attacks and anxiety, nope, that was a joke. I have been through a lot. To say my childhood was scary is an understatement, that is why I suffer with this. Hope I helped sharing my story, and I hope you figure out a solution for yourself.

[c_the_poet in reply to jessmn62312]

I currently take anti-depressants and while they were helpful in the beginning they aren't doing much anymore. I am hesitant to go in to see my doctor b/c I feel as though I can't communicate what it is I am experiencing. I have also had panic attacks, they started about a year ago and leave me feeling really tired for about a week. Does Xanax help? I have heard mixed advice on it. Thank you for sharing, it helps me feel less alone through all of this. I thought I would eventually find a way to naturally handle things also but nope. I am 19 and just dealing with all of this till now.

[jessmn62312 in reply to c_the_poet]

The Xanax did help. I Had the Alprazolam which I think was the generic brand. 0.5 mg. I would even take only half at a time when I had attacks. (Which most doctors said why bother because it was such a low dose after breaking it in half). I would take a whole one if I was really panicking. That would usually drain me and I would get sleepy and fall asleep. Anxiety and panic attacks are exhausting. It takes everything out of you. Your whole body is basically using all of its energy reacting to whatever is going on. I know after I stop shaking I feel weak. I stopped taking Xanax because I want to start a family and have children, and I didn’t want that in my system. But so far it has been over a year, I can’t suffer with this without some kind of medication. No kids yet, thank god it didn’t happen, I am not emotionally ready because of my anxiety. Definitely look into it though. It truly did help in those moments of panic. And when I was able to get through those panic attacks it helped get me through the rest of my day with my anxiety. I felt a little more normal.

[c_the_poet in reply to jessmn62312]

Thank you so much!

[fauxartist]

I'm sorry your going through that...it's the down side of this disease for sure. Are you in therapy or taking SSRI's?

[c_the_poet in reply to fauxartist]

Currently in therapy but I had to "start over" with a different therapist b/c mine left the clinic I go to.