Spiraling

[NoirLioness]

Last night I had more panic attacks and I wasn't able to help myself out of it. I could feel my body passing out from exhaustion but the panic was so fresh and alive in my mind. My mom had to lay with me until I could fall asleep. I have a therapist appointment tomorrow but still, this fear is so debilitating. I have also started vomiting whenever it hits. So exhausting.

[mirai]

I'm really sorry, that sucks

I had my first panic attacks a couple weeks ago. Being struck with that overwhelming fear and dread that you can't do anything about, it's a nightmare. Probably the worst thing I've felt. Every ten minutes or so I would be hit by it, and I'd immediately burst into tears and crumple onto the floor, with the thoughts of losing everything I am dominating my mind. And I believed it, every time.

I know it's impossible to help a person when they're in that place, I hope knowing that you're not alone can bring some kind of comfort.. even then though. God it just sucks so bad. It's literally hell.

I really really hope your therapist appointment goes well. If it doesn't, you can talk to me if you want. (not saying I'm a good replacement for a therapist, but I think I can be a good friend).

Just keep moving forward. You'll get there. It'll feel like an eternity, but once you're there everything will be okay. I know it.

[NoirLioness in reply to mirai]

Thanks so much for replying to my post. I found a lot of solace in what you're describing because that's exactly how I feel. I do feel comforted in the idea that there are others who can understand and share insight. It's a terrible thing to find in common with one another but what doesn't kill us makes us more resilient. I hope my appointment goes well too. I really like her, she seems grounded and I can rely on her a lot. I could always use a friend that's for sure. You've got a friend in me if you want one.

[mirai in reply to NoirLioness]

I'm glad it was comforting! I was worried that bringing up my own experience would be irritating and not helpful. But I think you're right, the best thing for us to do is to come together so that we don't have to do this on our own. I'm happy you could find a good therapist, I hear that can be really hard sometimes.

Friends it is then

Let me know how your session goes!

[Hidden]

I’ve been having panic attacks since February. Or March. I know exactly what you’re going through & I am so sorry this is happening to you.

If you need someone to talk to, I am here as well. I still have panic attacks at night every so often. It’s been 4 days since the last one, but I know they can keep you from sleep. I’m still sleepy from all the lack of sleep I don’t get. My heart goes out to you. <3

[NoirLioness in reply to Hidden]

I'm sorry you've been going through your own hell as well. I can't help but feel its such a terrible connection we all seem to have is this mind shattering fear and overwhelming sense of dread and panic. I hope you continue to remain panic free as the days go on. You have a friend in me should you want one. Thank you for reaching out to me. Xoxo