Spiraling

[AnxietyAtAllSeconds]

I’m spiraling rn I feel so dark and insecure this morning. Why do I even bother having more than one cocktail after work with friends it makes me feel just awful next morning? Anyone else? And yes I know alcohol is a known depressant. Still asking...am I alone ?

[Parkman]

Hi, You are not alone. Agreed that alcohol is a depressant, but I feel relaxed after a few drinks. I’ve had the same feelings the next morning if I over do it. I drink on the weekends mostly, and it provides me social experiences and a better frame of mind. Some would be concerned; I get that, but it provides me relief. Best, B

[AnxietyAtAllSeconds in reply to Parkman]

I agree. I mean I go out once a week for drinks after I work and recently I’ve been able to keep it to one or two. But I notice if I do more than that I just feel so dark the next morning. Unbelievably anxious and insecure and rehashing the night before over and over in my head it’s stupid stuff but it still plays in my head repeatedly. I know some would say then just don’t drink but it’s not that easy for me. After I knock off work at 2am I am not going to go for a run you know? I will want to have a cocktail and decompress and physically feel the tension leave my muscles after a long night. Idk how to avoid the morning anxiety. Idk thank you for your comment though it helps to know I’m not alone because it feels so dark and lonely right now

[LadyZen]

It depends on the alcohol for me. Vodka makes me cry and pass out. Tequila, beer, wine give me a headache. Rum actually puts me in a festive mood. I noticed recently, wine aggravates my anxieties. When I was in my deepest depression, I used to drink vodka, initially to help me sleep through my nightmares, but eventually to kill myself. I rarely drink now, but when I do, I try to limit it to one glass of wine. But this past Christmas, I had 3 glasses of some mixed drink and I stopped when I realized a part of me likes the way alcohol just drowns my feelings.

[AnxietyAtAllSeconds in reply to LadyZen]

I think that could be partially what I’m doing I mean I only go out and drink once a week but it’s after work and makes me feel like I am trying to just drink to forget. So I end up passing the feel good point and then I’m just plastered. And the next day I feel awful about myself and just dark. I agree that the different types of alcohol make me feel differently too. Do you find that you feel more anxious the next day after one in particular?

[LadyZen in reply to AnxietyAtAllSeconds]

I feel like crap after most alcohol the next day, except for rum. Something about rum just makes me happy, as long as I keep it to one mixed drink. But I rarely drink now, just a social events. My grandfather was an alcoholic and I think I might have his genes or something. Something just shuts off in me after a couple of drinks and I can't stop. It's like I can't feel myself getting drunk and then bam! I'm passed out in the middle of the bar.