I'm so numb

[Weaty]

I don't like the person I have become. When will I beat the pain???

[Orangeblossom85]

Hi weaty! The picture scares me so much! Why did you choose Joker?

Why do you feel numb? What is happening in your life? Maybe you would like to share?

[Weaty in reply to Orangeblossom85]

Sorry didn't mean to scare you. I actually love the actor (heath ledger). Cause it's too much effort to bother feeling anything else.

Life is a struggle, I'm judge surviving. I just feel sooooo ...... nothing

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Weaty]

I also really like heath ledger, I’ve seen all of his movies. Do you know his bio?

[Weaty in reply to Orangeblossom85]

No I didn't, how was it?

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Weaty]

I guess he also had it hard. And I’m not thinking about the last role.

[Weaty in reply to Orangeblossom85]

Everyone tries to hide it but it always comes out. I guess always being under the spot light isn't easy either

[Weaty in reply to Orangeblossom85]

How are you Orange?

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Weaty]

I love the smell of orange blossom! I even grow a huge tree at home to be able to inhale the smell of the flowers each year for about three weeks :))

[Weaty in reply to Orangeblossom85]

That's beautiful, I'm not much of a flower person but my mother has the most beautiful purple orchids around her house

[Weaty]

I'm just laying here like a corpse. I don't know what's actually happening in my head!

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Weaty]

Good that you here, on this website. I must say that the amount of support is huge! Read other posts, relate with others, post your story. I’m sure it can bring a change!

[Weaty in reply to Orangeblossom85]

I hope so, I just feel so low

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Weaty]

I understand you and this feeling. I’m exactly at the same spot so often. I used to feel dead, nothing had any importance. Now it has changed and mostly I feel extremely anxious, to the point of not moving from bed at all for the entire day.

[Weaty in reply to Orangeblossom85]

What happened to make you change?

[Atimetoheal]

Pain does change people. Sucks the life out of me. I just keep pressing on and do what I can in a day albeit a lot less but it’s something.

[Weaty in reply to Atimetoheal]

So taking it ome day at a time is all I can do

[Atimetoheal]

Exactly. Sometimes one hour at a time. Self care

[Weaty in reply to Atimetoheal]

1 step at a time Beth or one moment at a time and we should be fine. Let's not try and handle too much cause when we do we only hurt ourselves

[Atimetoheal]

I try not to dwell on the things I can’t do anymore because of the pain. I need to learn moderation and acceptance. Not easy especially because I was an athlete but this is now my reality.