Hi everyone im new here and looking for help. Ive suffered from severe depression for 3 years now. Around a year ago i caught my wife cheating and had a mental breakdown. I had been under a ton of stress working lots of hours and suspected she was cheating and when i caught her i finally lost it and actually went into a pyschosis for 2 weeks for the first time in my life. I was 36 at the time. Anyway the main problem im having now is this feeling of extreme restlessness and inner tension. It gets so bad that my body trembles. Especially if i think about anything that stresses me out. Ive gone from smoking 10 cigarettes a day to 2 packs. Im always on edge. I feel completely miserable and only get through the day by distracting myself surfing the internet. Ive tried to go back to my job 3 times this year but any kind of stress amplifies this feeling and makes it unbearable. Ive tried explaining it to my pdoc and he says its called pyschomotor agitation and prescribed me seroquel and ativan. The only thing that helps is a high dose of ativan but it makes me to dumb and lazy to to do my job. My question is does anyone have any experience with this or know of anything that helps. Living like this is torture and im desperately looking for answers. Thanks in advance!