Feeling defeated yet again

[Apowersyavg]

I just feel this is too much for me to handle. I am so sick and tired of thinking I’m going to die. I’m so sick and tired of being scared to eat because my throat feels as if it’s close from my stress or throwing up pretty much after every meal. I’m 23 and I should not even be worried about dying. Why is it always on my head it is going to happen? Why won’t my brain listen to the fact. I have physical symptoms that set me off all the time and then huge waves of anxiety rushing through me to where I can’t even pin point how to stop it or how to relax. I’m on 24 hour alert. I’m so hurt and defeated by this. I’m so tired of anticipating dropping. It’s really defeating me at this point. I just need to know someone out there is experiencing this as well. I feel so alone and hurt. I just want to cry all the time but it’s as if my tears are all dried up. Does anyone have any similar experiences or have any thoughts on how to ease this? It’s been happening since October and I really am over it. I’m petrified to take Xanax also. I don’t know what to do anymore. I really don’t.

[gogogirl]

Can you go to a MD about this?

[Apowersyavg in reply to gogogirl]

MD?

[gogogirl in reply to Apowersyavg]

Yes, medical doctor.

[Apowersyavg in reply to gogogirl]

Yeah. It’s just panic and anxiety. All medical checks came back totally fine. Blood work, listening to heart, chest X-rays.

[gogogirl in reply to Apowersyavg]

What about some type of swallowing or gastric test? ( I am not in the med field).

[gogogirl]

Pardon me but as a (much) older person- please be thankful that you are healthy. Please talk to friends, family or a therapist about this. This is irrational. BTW- I am going for a real medical test and I am kind of nervous- but whatever happens I will deal with it. If everything is fine- then I will be thankful . I know what anxiety and depression are- please seek help you are doing this to yourself.

PS- We are all going to die some day- but is does not sound like your time is even close. Be kind to yourself. I hope you are not spending hours whittling away on a smart phone. Studies have shown that there is at least a fifty per cent rise in depression in young people due to this. Now, please go outside and enjoy nature.

[gogogirl]

I am not sure also what is causing you this level of stress , but I hope you get to the bottom of it.

[GENGR]

I go thru the bouts of depression where I'm upset and crying and trying to get it to stop. Days where I feel like I'm living just to die. I wake up like this sometimes and I don't know why. I couldn't even begin to tell you why. It sucks the life outta of me so bad I don't go around ppl too often if at all. Drink a lil water and tell yourself you're going to make it. Sounds crazy but pep talk yourself at times. I feel like if I don't do this I would wack myself. So it can help. Always got an open ear...