I wish I could go back in time and do so many things differently. I lost all of my friends, I hardly hear from my family and this all happened because I let it happen. I pushed people away but certainly my anxiety and depression had a lot to due with it. As a kid I was always very shy. But I’m tired of making excuses. I never been married or have any children. I actually look forward to work simply so I can be around other people. I don’t want to be alone, and I’m so afraid of what will become of me.
I could go on but basically I’m so tired of living. I’m so tired of waking up feeling this way, I’m tired of meds. I’m 53 and I just want it to end.