Loneliness

[ashleybakerr01]

Im just sad and lonely again...idk what to do with myself or my time. I want to start working, but I'm afraid my health will interfere. I don't do good with the heat AT ALL. So I usually stay inside where it's not hot. But I feel like I should get used to going out again...just even if small bits at a time. I'm tired of being afraid to go out and do ANYTHING bc it's hot and I get sick if I'm the slightest bit too warm anymore.

I feel like I'm kind of rambling, I've never been good at getting my emotions and feelings out or making them make sense. I'm around people who are supposed to love me but I just don't feel truly valued and am disrespected alot. It's so mentally draining and I just don't know what to do about it 😔

[ashleybakerr01]

I'm also so insecure about my body I just try to hide away a lot. I know I shouldn't be at a going age, but finally gained some healthy weight, and now I feel out of place. I tried so hard to lose it all my life, to having to gain some. And I just feel so gross and ashamed forbaome reason

[bmarie96]

i get it.. im sorry you are going through this. i get sick to in the heat. i also feel very alone. i feel like im not apart of my family.. it sucks but i found walking away in tough times is needed. we are not responsible for there feelings but we are responsible for our actions...

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to bmarie96]

You are right. I walk away also, whether it makes people mad or not. I have no time for negativity when my minds already a mind field

[2Scared]

I feel you gurl. I HATEEEEE the heat. Anything over 75 degrees and I'm furious the entire day. Plus I despise having to show more skin, I'm so insecure it's insane. I've been dragging myself to work which thankfully has AC and is in home so there's not many people, but the hour commute is brutal everyday. If there are any remote jobs available that you have experience in, I'd look into it. If you have any friends/family with jobs, maybe you could also apply there to have company. Here for you sis, you got this

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to 2Scared]

Thank you