I have read some stories here about people who overcame years of anxiety and I really wish to be as brave as you guys. I don't know how you guys did it. Right now it feels impossible for me. I suffer from agoraphobia and I do go out with my family everyday but it physically hurts me. Trying to stay calm is so hard for me. I'm always shaking and I always feel a strange liquid sensation in my brain. Even though I go out everyday, the anxiety is still there. It has such a tight grip in my life. I guess I am impatient with myself, I want to overcome the anxiety now... But I know it might take a long time. I have missed out a lot in my life. I can only hope I can someday overcome my anxiety like some of the people on this forum. It takes a lot of courage. My biggest fear during a panic attack is losing myself. I fear the sensation of feeling disconnected around me. When I have a panic attack I feel like I am not real and that I am already dead or everyone around me is not real. It is that sensation that kills me.