Tired

[Tiffa]

Everyday is a struggle. Getting myself to a point where I am at a level playing field with everyone else takes up so much energy and emotion. I have to fight/ overcome my depression/ anxiety/ panic attacks to attend social functions, interviews or even meeting loved ones. It's all so taxing. I feel like my life has no meaning anymore. What is the point? Is this how I'm supposed to live for the rest of my life?

[g33kgirl86]

Hi tiffa, I'm going through the same thing. It's hard trying to manage it each day and I'm tired before I have even started my day. I'm going through a bad patch just now and all I can say is to keep talking. I keep pushing on because I live in hope that it will someday get easier... Even if I'm unsure it will ever come.

Keep fighting

[Tiffa in reply to g33kgirl86]

Thanks. I will try to keep pushing through.

[g33kgirl86 in reply to Tiffa]

I hope i have helped x

[Hugo1990]

Hi tiffa - I was the same three weeks ago and would love to say since the new meds I feel better but I don’t fully. They just switch of some parts but not the parts where I feel worthless and like there’s no point continuing. Do you take anything currently or have you spoke to a professional? Mines put it down to childhood and reliving shite memories . I’d say hope you feel better soon but I know it’s just not that easy

[Tiffa in reply to Hugo1990]

I've tried seeking proffessional help. But where I live counselling relies a lot on religion. It's complicated

[Hugo1990 in reply to Tiffa]

That’s not good at all, they should make it easy and accessible. I was always referred to ‘let’s talk services’ but I don’t know if that’s just for the Gloucester area or not? I did see a text line the other day but I suppose this is just as good as that

[Hidden]

Hi Tiffa, that could have been me writing. getting out of bed seems pointless, life seems pointless and just one long struggle. However, What keeps me going is that once in a blue moon I have a short period when I actually enjoy something. Maybe seeing my sister, or watching a bumblebee. Those windows, however tiny, give me hope that there is more positive to come. Try to pick up on one thing you find -however rare and focus on that little glimpse of light in the dark x

[Tiffa]

Thank you Oolong, I usually appreciate the good times, however rare and short-lived.

[LadyO4]

I feel so moved by your post because I can identify with how you feel. Yes, I felt incapable of changing anything until one day a friend opened up my eyes to see the bigger picture of what was going on inside my brain and inside my body - up to that point I had not known there was a connection, but it all made sense.

I don't believe it's how you are meant to live the rest of your life - but this can be a turning point for you too - to discover what is going on with your hormones, your genetic history, medical issues, and other things that might be impacting you. For example, if your thyroid is not producing enough hormones, you get depression. If your thyroid is producing too much, you get anxiety. Depression and anxiety are hormone related.

I am a Christian and have heard every side to the story as to why people cannot shake off this debilitating feeling and continue to suffer, when finding the right kind of help can be the very tool God uses in your life to bring about those changes. Would you like more information? I would be happy to pass along resources and phone numbers if you'd like them. Just let me know and we can continue this conversation.

[Tiffa in reply to LadyO4]

Thanks, I would love that

[LadyO4 in reply to Tiffa]

You will hear a loving and kind voice at the other end of the phone when you call 1 855-382-5433. I hope you feel at ease to call, knowing someone out there cares and wants to help.

bit.ly/2GVdeek offers a nice explanation of what you might be facing.

bit.ly/2Lfatsh offers excellent reading materials that will encourage you.

I trust this will help you tremendously. Thanks for letting me share.

[bluestars725]

I understand how you feel. I feel exactly the same way. I'm exhausted before my day even begins, and I have to fight my anxiety and depression so hard for the most basic outings. It's gotten to the point where I'm too tired, and I have missed out on so many things. Just wanted you to know you're not alone in feeling that way.

[Tiffa in reply to bluestars725]

I feel comforted by the fact that I'm not alone. I've missed out on many things too, some days the anxiety/ panic attacks win

[Sunnidayz1]

Please understand life is not a competition. Keeping up with Joneses is something society has come up with. Too much pressure. Theres no timeline to achieve things either.

So focuson your own path and take care of yourself and eventually u will get where u want to be

XxSuni

[Tiffa in reply to Sunnidayz1]

For me it's not really about competing, I don't do well in super competitive environments. It's about finding the courage to enjoy things like social functions, get excited that I've been called for an interview instead of dread... Generally just living life without fear.

[Lindsay478]

I can relate to how you feel, for sure. Sometimes I think that if anyone around me had any idea what it took for me to get to the office, or what it does to me to schedule a weekend activity out, or what it feels like to leave my house at all, they would think I'm sick. Which is incredibly odd because on the outside, I look just as "normal" as everyone else.

As far as the meaning of it all, I find comfort in the meaning being solely from within myself - whatever I make it to be. Like a drug addict, addicted to happiness, I keep fighting for the next high. Whether it's a meme that makes me laugh until my abs hurt, a movie that moves me to tears, a book that rips my heart open or a personal connection that makes me believe that we are "meant to be" here, right now, this way. None of the other crap will matter in the end, but what we carry inside.

[Tiffa]

I have those happy moments as well. I should cherish them more. Sometimes I 'catch' myself in a happy situation and feel a bit sad that I might not feel the same way the next day.

[Poodle3]

I feel the same way. Sometimes I wish that when I fall asleep I never wake up. The only thing that gets me up everyday is my three dogs. I see my psychologist every two weeks. Tried so many meds but after awhile don’t seem to help. I just try to wake up every morning feeling positives and try to have a good day but there are many days I just can’t get out of bed.